[music] From the moonlight lounge in the Blue Bayou Motel in Downsville, Louisiana, it's time for another episode of Pod Is My Co-Pilot with Taylor the Latte Boy, Tappie Carlisle Huffington, and Rodan. Take it away, kids! [music] Thank you for downloading episode 131 of Pod Is My Co-Pilot. Hosted this week by Rodan! [laughs] Our lovely co-hosts, Tappie Carlisle Huffington and Taylor the Latte Boy, are actually just returning from their Disney Cruise. Now, unfortunately, we'll be able to hear about their Disney Cruise this weekend or this week. However, we will hear about it next week. Over and over and over again. [laughs] I joke, I joke, Taylor will probably edit that out. Anyways, I just wanted to give you guys the Rodan music episode before Taylor killed me. As you guys know, both Taylor and Tappie actually hosted their own music episodes where they picked a number of their own songs and played them for you guys a little story about why they are their songs. And I've struggled with this over the last, oh my gosh, probably year to be able to put forth the music episode. Part of the reason for me that I've had issues putting forth the music episode is that most of the moments in my life where I kind of turn to music have been relatively dark. So, I didn't want to put forth a show that was going to depress our listeners. Which means you, obviously, but I didn't want to depress you guys, so I kind of shied away from it. Now, the fact that Taylor and Tappie have gone on a Disney Cruise that gives me a whole new dark place to be able to reach from to give you guys a music episode. Actually, I tried to pick songs from various moments in my life that were impactful. Some of these are happy moments, some of these are sad moments. I'll give you a little bit of the story behind why I choose these songs. And I'm actually going to try to edit this episode as I go myself. So, that may be dangerous. And Taylor may have to scrap the entire episode because I'm a corporate idiot. Anyways, the first song I have up, and I think I was supposed to be limited to five. I didn't really choose five, I have more than five, and I'm going to make up for that by not playing the entire song for you guys. And I hope that makes this happy for you guys and makes Taylor less mad at me. Anyways, starting out, I'm actually going way back to elementary school. As you guys know, I'm not exactly very music literate. And there was a point when I first moved to Florida, I actually grew up in Wisconsin. I moved to Florida, I had just gained this group of very nerdy friends, which worked out well for me because I too was a big nerdy freak. So, Taylor's going to laugh at me, and he's going to be mad at me after I put this forth. But my first song that I'm putting out there is actually because of how much of a nerd I am. These guys and I, on the playgrounds, we used to run around and sing in this theme song all the time and playing characters. And I mean, we're talking third grade, so I don't think that I was doing this when I was, you know, in high school or anything. I was in like third grade, we played around the playground singing this song to the point where people actually thought that we sang the theme song. And it's actually how I ended up getting a little bit into music in the first place. So, I'm going to go ahead and put the song on now and then cut it off really quickly so you guys can laugh at me. ♪♪♪ ♪ Transformer! ♪♪♪ ♪ Some people want to know what you do ♪♪♪ ♪ And the fact that's not your goal ♪♪♪ ♪ And the fact that you do ♪♪♪ ♪ Because I'm trying to keep the place to go ♪♪♪ ♪ When you're trying to keep the bridge ♪♪♪ ♪ All the people you want to call ♪♪♪ ♪ Transformer! ♪♪♪ ♪ All the people you want to call ♪♪♪ ♪ Transformer! ♪♪♪ ♪ All the people you want to call ♪♪♪ ♪ Transformer! ♪♪♪ Okay, sorry about that, folks. I know that was really, really loud. And wow, is that very very 80s. But yeah, so we used to play around with that on the playground all the time, making up stories, role-playing. It was a blast. It's before I had any other cares in the world. So yes, I'm a dork. I admit it, I'm okay with that. And that's why behind me, I have all these Transformers action figures because it takes me back to a happier place. Anyways, moving on. Growing up, we grew up in this itty-bitty town or small town, I should say. It was just the right size. And then when I got to be middle school-age, we moved to this itty-bitty town called Aster on the St. John's River. We were, this is not even a one-stop-light town. I mean, we had a Jiffy store. Many of you guys know what a Jiffy store is? Huzzah. Anyways, so when I got to high school, my dad, when I turned 16, my dad gave me this white S10 truck. It was a stick shift, and oh, that was scary. But I used to drive myself and my brothers to school. And when I got the truck, I had a tape deck in it. And so I felt that it was necessary for me to buy a tape. So what I purchased was REM, I believe it was the out of time CD or tape, tape, tape, tape. And listen to that for months, tortured my poor brothers for months with the out of time tape. But so my next song is actually going to be losing my religion. So one second. Oh, life is bigger, it's bigger than you, you are not me. It means that I will go to distance in your eyes. I'm not set too much, I set it up. That's me in the corner, that's me in the spot. I'm losing my religion, trying to keep up with you. And I don't know if I could do it. I don't know if I'm set too much, I haven't said enough. I thought that I heard you laughing. I thought that I heard you saying. I think I thought I saw you try. Every whisper, every waking hour, I'm choosing my confession. Try and keep eye on you, like a hurt lost and blind, oh, oh. I don't know I said too much, I set it up. Okay, so we'll go ahead and cut that off there. I realize there's probably some fate thing and it'd be all pretty and wonderful and I can't figure it out yet. So we're going to move on. Actually, let me do a little bit more explanation for me. Losing my religion was very much about trying to figure out and understand my gayness and my attraction at the time to both men and women and trying to kind of find my place in high school and in life. And so I think probably for a lot of people in the mid 90s, that was probably or early 90s, I should say, that was probably the case for most folks. You know, I think I started dating a girl shortly after I started listening to that song and had access to the truck. But anyways, so we're going to move on to the next kind of time period in my life. Actually, and this kind of goes back to me being a cheesy person, but in high school, I started dating a girl, and then my junior year, I also started dating a guy. Robbie, he was crazy and fun and just, did I say insane yet? Because he was insane. Anyways, he was very closeted at the time and I was pretty much ready to come out of the closet, but I was very happy and, you know, I was very happy with the balance of my life between the girl and the guy and it was just a ton of fun, a ton of social activities for me, which, you know, had not necessarily been the case. Actually, through most of my life, even before and after, so it's kind of discovering who I was and so this song, which was a song in a Disney movie, actually came to signify a lot of that. And then there's a darker side to what the song signifies to me now that I'll go into after I play a snippet for you. I can show the world, shining, chilling, scolented, tell me, princess, now when did you last let your heart decide? I can open your eyes, take you under, by wonder, over sideways, under on a magic garden ride, the whole new world. A new fantastic point of view, no one to tell us how, where to go, say we're only dreaming. A whole new world, a dazzling place I never knew, but when I grew up here, it's crystal clear, but now I'm in a whole new world. Now I'm in a whole new world. I believe in both sides, indescribable feet, soaring, tumbling, dreaming through an endless diamond sky, a whole new world. Don't you dare close your eyes, hold your breath as it's been removed. I can go back to where I used to be, every turn has survived. Let me share this whole new world with you. Okay, yes, I realize it's cheesy, but it was very much to the point of where I was in life. It's all the movie, it's awesome, loved it, about a week later, my brother and I were actually having to be my 17th birthday as well. My brother and I were on our way to school, I drove him, we'd actually moved to the other side of the city, so we'd actually moved to a city or a city-ish type place in Lake County. I was driving us to school and we were coming up upon a recycling truck and I slowed down, kind of started to go around it because it was parked off to the side of the road. As I got to the cab of the recycling truck, the driver stepped out in front of us. I hit him, going about 20 miles an hour, he hit my windshield and rolled off and very quickly, I went out to help or at least try to see what I could do to help. Unfortunately, he died about 10 days later, so one of the reasons why my birthday is not necessarily a fun time for me, but while we were going to school, my brother, who's straight, was also, we were listening to this tape in my car, not the S10, but a Subaru GL from 1984, but we were listening to this tape. And so for years, I could not listen to this song without crying. Later that same day, because I went to school, covered in this poor man's blood, and then went to work, because I was completely in shock. My friends threw a surprise birthday party for me, so that had my boyfriend there at the time, as well as all of our friends, and it was this moment that should have been amazing and wonderful, and it was sad and made me cry, and it's been hard for me to have birthdays and stuff ever since. And please don't think that for one moment that I diminish and make this sound like it's all about me, because it really is all about his family and the children that he left behind. And so every year on my birthday, 17 years now, I do celebrate him and his unfortunate passing, so a little bit into my psyche there and things that have happened to me along the ways and to the people around me. Moving on, actually, the next song I picked here has a little bit of a sad story with it as well. But for many years, growing up, my dad and I would watch James Bond movies, so for me, and actually the rest of my brothers, we all have a love for James Bond movies and watching them and enjoying them and growing up, we used to watch them with my father. Like when they used to show them on ABC, and I definitely remember the Roger Moore ones for their cheese factors, and also because they were the most recent ones as I was growing up. When I was in college, we went to go visit a friend of mine, and I went to go visit my dad and his girlfriend and with my brothers, and Gold and I had just come out in theaters. And so we went to go see Gold and I together as a family. So I'm actually picking Gold and I as one of my songs that mean a lot to me, and I'll explain why this family outing meant as much as it did to me as it does. [Music] See reflection on the water, more than darkness in the depths. See him surface and every shadow on the wind, I feel his breath. Gold and I have found his weakness. Gold and I, you do what I please. Gold and I have time for sweetness, but a better kiss will bring him to his knees. You never know how I watched you from the shadows as a child. You never know how it feels to be the one who's left behind. You never know the days of the night, the tears of the ground. But now my time has come and time and time is not on your side. Okay, so yes, that was a little bit of Tina Turner in there for you. Probably not her most classic work, but anyway, so yeah, the reason why this outing in this James Bond movie and the song kind of meant a lot to me, or means a lot to me, is that it was the last family outing that we ever had, my brothers and I and my father. My father, after Thanksgiving, by Christmas, he was hospitalized. We later found out that he had cancer across 75% of his spine, and he only lived about another six months after that. He unfortunately lost his battle with cancer, and it took him very, very quickly. So that was the last time my brothers and I ever did anything with my father. So it does mean a lot to us, and certainly has a big impact on me and. Okay, so after between the accident and my father's passing. We, I was actually, I did not do so well. And so when Taylor refers the times when I was not a very nice person. Well, this would be the time and not make an excuse for that, because, quite frankly, I was not a very nice person at all during this time period. But what I had done after after the accident after my dad's passing. Actually, I escaped and went to Massachusetts and stayed with a friend of both Taylor and ours are Taylor and mine rather. And this song came out while I was there and it became a symbol for healing and moving on and kind of the next chapter of my life. It became the beginning of the next chapter and the beginning of my adult life versus all this scary, insane stuff that I had seen in my late teen years so this is actually the first Torremos song that I'm going to put on here and the only Torremos song. And I'm sure Taylor is going what the hell took you so long. But here's a little bit of an unexpected Torremos song. 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Sorry, almost at a random, never ending story reference. No clue. Anyways, I just wanted to say thank you for listening to the show. I have one more song that I'll play as kind of I'm exiting, but I wanted to say thank you. And I appreciate all the love and attention and feedback that I've received over the last two years on POD as my co-pilot and this show has definitely become something that is worth the risks for those of us who understand what I mean there. But it's been an experience and it's been a fun ride. So thank you for listening to episode 131 of POD as my co-pilot. My co-hosts, Taffy Carlisle-Huffington, and Taylor the Latte boy will be back next week. Don't forget to check out the blog, which unfortunately Rodin could have had complete control over over the last week and I missed a golden opportunity there. So check out the blog at POD as my co-pilot.com. And don't forget to be our friends on Facebook at okay, so I love POD as my co-pilot. I'm sure there's something else I should be adding in here, but Taylor normally does this part, and so I forget. Okay, so we're going to do one last song, and I feel as if I can't close out any show about music that I like without something from Kelly Clarkson and being a gay man that I am, I guess I can't close out the show without something from Glee as well. So I'm going to go with, to close out the show, my life would suck without you, because believe it or not, I kind of miss Taylor and Taffy. Hope you enjoy the show. Have a great week. Bye bye. Yes, it means you take back all you said before, like how much you wanted, anyone but me, said you never come back, but here you are again. Because we belong together, yeah, for every now and here, so now, yeah, you've gotta be surprised, and not the same. My life, my life, what's up, what's up, without you. Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye, maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight, I know that I've got issues, but you're pretty messed up too. Either way I found out, I'm nothing without you. Can we belong together, so now, yeah, for every now and here, so now, yeah, you've gotta be surprised, and not the same. My life, my life, what's up, what's up, without you. Being with you is so dysfunctional, I really shouldn't miss you, but I can't let you go. We belong together, now, yeah, for every now and here, so now, yeah, you've gotta be surprised, and not the same. My life, my life, what's up, what's up, without you. We belong together, so now, yeah, for every now and here, so now, yeah, you've gotta be surprised, and not the same. My life, my life, what's up, what's up, without you. Goodbye everybody.
