The Todd Herman Show
My Dad REFUSED to Die on The 4th of July Ep-1698
I couldn’t do today’s live show without sharing with you about the 54th of July, 22 years ago when my dad refused to die.
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- Duration:
- 49m
- Broadcast on:
- 03 Jul 2024
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It occurred to me this morning I haven't spoken about July 5th and I got notes from people who have been with me on local and national radio for years and they've said, "Are you going to talk about July 5th?" If you're new to the program, July 5th was a very important day for me in the formation of, I guess, full circle moment because my dad and I, as a family and my sister and family, we used to spend independent day together out at a lake that's not far from where we're at right now, or where I'm at, north Idaho. And it was on July 4th, this was, gosh, 22 years ago, 22 years ago that my dad utterly refused to die on that July 4th, just refused. And there's a lot of things to talk to in the show and we'll probably get to that. The cultural things, you're aware of the political stuff and we might get to that. But I wouldn't be able to do the show in any good conscience, honestly, and to feel good about what we do here if I didn't speak what's on my mind. So it's opportunity to turn out, to announce, we may not get to the political stuff, but I may tell you what it was like, my intention is to tell you what it was like to keep this promise my dad extracted from me. My dad had said, "When it's past the point of no return, meaning his life, when he was going to die, make sure it goes quickly." And he taught me my whole life about, "You never let an animal suffer. From across an animal that's been gut shot, you spend your day tracking it and you put it out of its misery. That actually happened to us when we were hunting. Under a gut shot, dear, my dad was furious. Someone would let that go and not track it down. We spent an entire day tracking that poor animal and finally dispatching it. I'm not comparing my dad to a dear, but he told me, he told me something related to hunting. We'll talk about that if you stick around. Also, I want to take that and move it into culture today because, as we said in the five minute focus, if you watch that, I am so glad I'm not single. I am so glad I'm not in the dating world because of dating apps and what I think they're doing to society. I'm very well-convinced that's what they're doing to society, at least. We'll get started with all of this with the help of our YouTube channel. It's youtube.com/atthetauthermenshow. If it's just the fun of watching people who hate my God's leave comments, that is sort of fun. I'm trying to get some of them on the show. I think error troll day would be a fun day and, of course, we'll do this with the help of God almighty who is right there, right there in the room when I was, I guess, forced to keep a promise to my dad, turn up the morphine. We'll talk about that with the help of God almighty. The Todd Herman Show is 100% disapproved by big pharma technocrats and tyrants everywhere. Now, from the high mountains of free America, here's the emerald city exile, Todd Herman. Today is the day the Lord has made, and these are the times to which God is the side of which he lives. Sorry for the switcharoo, I can just put myself in the shoes of people who gather, show prep stuff for me, the audio of the video, and so I will try to pay off that work, but honestly, as I said, in the preamble to the preamble, I couldn't in good conscience proceed with the show without talking about this. Not just given the notes that I got, but simply because I need to talk about it. So I'll pay you later for the therapy. I'll send you a check for the therapy. Good therapist about 150 bucks an hour, so stay tuned, right? It was a long process getting to this point where my dad was ultimately in the hospital bed in which he died, and it began with a prayer at home, began with a prayer, Billy Graham taught me to pray. Not really, but it's the only book I ever read about prayer at that time. Yeah, I'd obviously read the Bible, parts of it had not yet read it all the way through. I didn't yet understand it, but I read it. I didn't have a relationship with God, but I believed in him and was encountering him and having moments with him. And I set a prayer at home. And part of that prayer, and I'll focus on this part of the prayer because today is about this, part of that prayer was to God saying, please show my father how sick he is and how much he has loved. And that was a prayer I said on my knees. And I said that Billy Graham taught me to pray. So Billy Graham suggested a prayer structure that I find incredibly helpful and that prayer structure is, dear Lord God, I pray to you, not as I think of you, but as you know yourself to be. And the reason I love that structure is I feel it releases us from our concept of God and the consequential limits. Because in our concept of God, we are limited beings. We are going to create limits for God. Even if we say, well, he's limitless, he's powerless, he's all powerful, he's all knowing, he's all seeing, he's all of these things. We can't relate to that. Those are words. We can't relate to being omniscient. We can say the word and think we understand the concept, but think just just for a moment of an eternal creature being a personality, a loving God who has always existed and always will, and one day see there's the limit. I was going to say one day God said light be, there were no days, there were no days. He made days for us, we need them, he doesn't. There was no time, he doesn't need time, we do, to make sense of things. He doesn't need directions or compasses, he doesn't need maps, he doesn't need words, he made words for us and then named his son the word, or at least one of the names of the Lord Jesus. So in that structure, dear Father God, I pray to you not as you think of yourself, but as you know yourself to be. It frees us from these limits. It's a part of my prayer and that was at night. It was a prayer before bedtime on my knees. Please show my dad how sick he is and how love, how sick he is and how much he's loved. That's next morning, I woke with a phone call and it was my uncle. Your dad is in the emergency room in Spokane. He's not expected to live, you need to get over here. So I went and sprinted and made it to an airplane and flew to Spokane, picked up a rental car and drove into the hospital. And sure enough, there was my dad and he was in the hospital room and my sister and my mother, who was the divorce wife of my dad, they remained very dear friends and loved each other till the end. He was there. She was there. And immediately we were confronted with, you need to sign this, do not resuscitate. That's what your father wanted. So my sister and I discussed it with my mom and we did. That was a long time before he ended up in the hospital bed in which he died. It was, gosh, probably six months or so, maybe longer. He was in the hospital long time and they did a great job trying to figure out what was wrong with them. They really did. And he had fantastic insurance, fantastic insurance. They even got him a helicopter flight to Seattle, which is where he ended up dying. And once again, it was a phone call from my uncle. And my dad awoke from coma in Spokane. This is six months prior. He sang a fight song with my mom. They sang the cougar fight song. My dad made a joke. I'm not being as sick as he'd let on. It was a line from tombstone that he said to me because I went and saw him. In fact, when the doctor, when he'd come out of coma, he spoke to the doctor and the doctor came into the room and sat down with all of us, he goes, "Your dad is awake and I think he's going to make it, but I'm very concerned that he doesn't want to live." I said, "Why?" He said, "Well, when he woke up, he said, "Am I alive?" And I said, "Yes." And your dad said, "I was afraid of that." I said, "Doc, that's a little big man. That's a great western." You probably saw the movie with Dustin Hoffman based on the book, "Little Big Man." That's a line from a movie. So I went in and saw my dad and said, "You had me worried." And then he pulled out a doc holiday line. "Well, I wasn't quite as sick as I let on." That was six months prior to going to Seattle, and he and I talked. And he said, "Promise me this, when it's past the point of no return, make sure it goes quickly. Do you remember the deer, the one that we chased for a day, a 10-hour day? Remember it went to the bottom, it went into that thicket and it saw at the bottom to hide? Don't let me get there. When it's past the point of no return, promise me that like we did with deer, you will make sure it goes quickly. And I think I prayed. I said, "Okay, I promise." I don't think I was really prepared for the promise when that moment came because it came about six months later on July 4th. But my dad refused to die on July 4th. And as I'm telling this story, I'm getting prepared this weekend to have a couple of friends. Our dear friend, Zach Abraham is headed over this way. Zach's the chief investment officer, board capital management, you know that. But my other dear friend, Tim Cruciak is coming over, and Tim just went through this. Tim just went through not the death of his father, but the death of his wife Liz. And he's coming over, and there is a little bit of a rumor that Tim, the CEO of Bonefrog Coffee, might be looking at a retail location over here in North Idaho. It might be one of the many retail locations of Bonefrog. There's one single small one right now in Washington state in Redmond, which is around where Tim lives. So Bonefrog is going to continue to grow, praise God. Every bag says God country team on it, and that's true. God comes so first in Tim's life. So I hope these rubbers are true, and I'm going to put them to the test when he's over here and go see if they're actually looking at buildings because I've heard they're looking at buildings. That would be phenomenal. That might mean that I would get to have my friend closer to me. And if you've not got yet a chance to know Tim, I would tell you this. You can know him in a way, although he's a man of real depth and real character. He's a retired Navy SEAL, Buds instructor, Patriots through and through, has nothing to prove on that front. And I would tell you this, but you can get to know him a little bit through the coffee. Tim could have done what a lot of companies owned by people who have a footprint or a brand like Tim does as a seal. It would have been very, very easy for Tim to go grab some junk coffee and put a cool brand on it. He refused. He recruited Dave Stewart, a legend in the coffee business. She had his best coffee was his company that Starbucks was forced to buy to get out of their way. To make some of the roasts and to mentor team, the team bonefrog on the rest of them. Tim hires veterans, works with veteran owned companies whenever he can, but the coffee, it is so solid and so indicative of who Tim is because it had to be the best, because it says on a God country team, and part of team is family. You might notice when you buy bonefrog these days, it's not right now Tim leaving notes to customers always, sometimes it's his kids, it's a family company. Try the coffee and simply make a decision based on that, not on the brand. He would not want that. Go to bonefrogcoffee.com/tod, use promo code Todd to get 10% off of your first purchase, 15% off subscription coffees, bonefrogcoffee.com/tod. So Tim's coming over in the midst of his grief, and we hope to go shooting and have fellowship and brotherhood to help bring him out of his grief. Not that it's going to work, the grief is too raw. I got another phone call about six months after my dad went into the hospital in Spokane, they were moving him to Seattle because they wanted to be able to get him more intense care. Now, the cynic in me says, "Yeah, maybe you wanted them off the books, maybe, but the doctors at the University of Washington Medical Center were actually really into trying to save his life." In fact, they said this, and I get this now, they said, "Your father's a really interesting case." My father had a whole series of issues, some of which he gave himself by refusing to treat himself. I've talked to him, I've talked to you about his overuse of alcohol and ibuprofen, that certainly didn't help, his refusal to take his meds for his thyroid, that didn't help his overuse of food, didn't help, all those things didn't help, all related to this core belief, my dad was, my dad had a core belief that he was a worthless man, that he was unloved. He hated himself. When he showed up at the hospital in Seattle, it was six months after showing up in Spokane, but the craziest thing happened in Spokane, the nuttiest thing. Remember that prayer? "Dear God, I pray to you not as I think of you, but as you know yourself to be." Remember that prayer? Through his time in Spokane, he started to get visits from people all around the country, some of whom, or 11 or 12 years old, the last time he saw them, they simply learned that he was sick and very sick and in the hospital and might not live. They were now people in some in their 20s or 30s, some in their 40s, some of their 50s. And the younger ones were people that he had worked directly with as a social worker because he worked with troubled kids, kids who were kicked out of the house, kids who were homeless, kids were in juvenile hall, kids who had been in jail and then put into adult prison. And from all around the country, they came to share their love with him, to celebrate what he did for them and they used his nickname, Big T. We had family members fly in and so many family members come and express this love. I watched my dad realize, "Wow, I truly am loved." And it was some of the most joyful time my father ever experienced. Want to know why? Because he was forced to sit there and accept the love. He couldn't walk out. He couldn't say no to the social limitations. He couldn't say no to go on the parties, to family events. He couldn't show up late and leave early. He had to sit there and accept the love. He died before his dad mom. Well, his birth mother had died many, many years before, that decades before that, but he had come to accept my Grandma Nikki as mom. So that was paid off. God paid that prayer off. My father learned how sick he was and he learned how well loved he was. That prayer, I didn't realize that until I took his ashes home. That was a moment. Never carried the ashes of a loved one. My dad's ashes weighed in at just about nine and a half pounds, like a baby. And I was not able to drive emotionally unsafe. So my now wife drove me home and I cradled the ashes of my father to my chest like a baby. Later she and I would bring a baby home by nine pounds. He never got to meet her. It was six months later and it was another phone call and it was from my same uncle. And my uncle said, the hospital called me, they've run some tests. It appears your dad's kidneys and liver have shut down. He is not expected to make it through the day. This was on July 4. I got out of beds and I prayed and I drove to the hospital, University of Washington Medical Center. I got there at about seven o'clock in the morning on July 4. And I walked into the hospital room and there was my father and the doctor. The doctor took me outside. I said, good morning to my dad, told him I loved him, gave him a hug. And he had never really been an I love you guy. He'd said it once or twice. It was hard for him, really difficult for him to say I love you. He showed it. He showed it. I felt loved. So I went out and I chatted with the doctor for a bit about, okay, tell me what's going on. Well, your father's kidneys have stopped functioning and his liver stopped functioning. I said, you know this, how? Well, here's the graphs we use. These are the sensors we use. Here's what we'd be seeing. If there was liver function, here was what we'd be seeing. If there was kidney function, here's what his urine is looking like. Here's what his blood's looking like. We're doing these blood samples. All this adds up to these organs have stopped working. And I said, and there's no bringing them back. He goes, no, there's not, okay. So standing there in the hallway, my memory went back to what Dad had said. Remember the deer? Don't let me get there. Make sure it goes quickly. I called my sister who was in the midst of a pregnancy. She had unfortunately lost some children in pregnancy. She wasn't able to complete the pregnancies. It was horrible for her and her husband. Horribly painful. She was to be in bed rest. She refused. She came down to say goodbye to my dad. And she's a medical professional. So she came into the room, her husband, and she greeted my father and they talked for a bit and then her husband needed to leave. He had to go to work. So he said to my dad, it's been an honor, big tea. And Dad said, don't you make me come back if I mistreat my daughter? And my brother-in-law left. My sister and I talked. I had her talk with the doctor. And the doctor explained it to her in professional terms as colleagues. And she took me aside and she said, it's the end. So how long can he live? She said, I don't know, 48, 64 hours. I said, ultimately, how would he die? She said, well, he would drown. So he would drown. Yes, he would drown them in his own body fluids. What do you feel distress, probably? So there was that promise. Remember the deer, son? Yeah, I remember the deer. My sister went back in, was visiting with my dad. And I took the doctor aside, I'll tell you the second one I said. So I said to the doctor in the hallway, standing there, just face-to-face, I need you to turn up my father's morphine a lot. And he said, is he in pain? I said, no. I made my father a promise. And the doctor said, you know what you're asking. I said, I do. I know how this will end. It will be hastening his death. I also want to do everything I can to avoid discomfort. I understand that he will drown in his own body fluids. Is that right? Yes. How do I stop that? Well, you can. I guess you could sit next to him, we can provide you a pump. I can show you how to pump his lungs. Okay. I'll pump his lungs. He said, that could go on for days. I said, oh, that's fine. So he turned up the morphine a lot, went into the room and he did it. He didn't tell my dad what he was doing. We had the attorney's rights to do that. My dad had given that to us. And when the doctor left the room, I went over to my dad and he said, is it taken care of? I said, I've just kept my promise to you. He nodded. So as the morphine drip began, my brother, half brother, came in with his now wife. And I filled him in and what was going on. They sat and visited with my dad. Ultimately, my sister needed to leave because of this troubled pregnancy, which has resulted in my beloved, beloved niece, who I love so dearly. And so he got to my father and got to place his hands on my sister's stomach and speak to the baby he would never meet. He also wrote a check. He wrote a check. I got to deliver that check to my sister and she got to hold on to it for years. I think we kept the account open just for that. It was for I forget the age, but we had reasoned at some point, my niece would be old enough to appreciate the check from grandpa, the actual check. My half brother and his brother, I mean, he and his now wife, they stuck around in the hospital room and we began doing things to make my dad comfortable. And this was now at about two o'clock in the afternoon that every other people had to leave my sister had to leave. At some point, my uncle came, another uncle who was in Seattle came and he walked in and we greeted him and he said to my dad, "Hey, big guy, this is when you need to fight it. This is when you need to fight it. You need to fight." And I took my uncle aside, I said, "No, no, no. Here's where we're at. My sister's confirmed this, the doctor's confirmed this. No. Now's when we need to let go. The only difficult is that to say to my dad's little brother, "No, big brother needs to go." He invited. He didn't say, "Let go," but he stopped saying, "Fight." So he had to leave. He said, "I love you." I think they shook hands. I think that was the physical manifestation of caring. They shook hands. And we started to do things like I was reading my father. The book that we'd read while I was in the hospital, I'd read him Lonesome Dove, which is one of my favorite books, top five favorite books. And so I was reading that to him. We were talking and ultimately the morphine hit pretty quickly and my dad was passed out. And we continued to sit in the hospital room and I continued to sit there using this device that would pump the fluid out of his lungs. And I don't want to be gross. It was not just mucus because his body was not eliminating urine, et cetera. So I am pumping his lungs so that I would not have my father drowned. I would not have him in any distress. So we're sitting there on this and my brother and his now wife and I are talking and visiting. And it comes to about, gosh, 10 o'clock at night. And the fireworks are going off and at the University of Washington, we were in between a fireworks display on Capitol Hill in Seattle back before the communists owned it. And Lake Union back before the homeless people, street people were given ownership over this great park called Gasworks Park before the communists gave it to them. There used to be fireworks, amateur fireworks shows on the lake, multimillionaires putting us off. So the whole sky is lit with these fireworks and they had turned off the monitors. We didn't want the beeping, anything like that. My dad was breathing, but more and more shallow. And then the fireworks ended. It was probably about 11, 11 o'clock or 10 30, I think, fireworks ended. Just silence. We just sat, there was the sound of the pump. Every time my dad coughed, I would put this thing in his nose, go down into his lungs, and bring the fluid out. I think it was, yeah, about 10 30 that the doctor walked in. And we were sitting there quiet. I had my hands up, my knees and my head in my hands and I'm very tired and maybe leaning against the railing of the hospital bed. And the doctor came in and he said, I'm so sorry. I didn't get to know your dad a lot, but man, he was a real gentleman, interesting man. And I said, is she dead? He goes, oh, I was thinking, oh, he has to be. He has to be. The amount of morphine I'm giving this man, doctor walked over, checked his pulse, his heartbeat. I said, he's breathing. And then the doctor looked outside at the last few fireworks. And he turned and he goes, is July 4th important to you guys? I said, yeah, it's our favorite family holiday together. He goes, oh, your dad's not going to die in July 4th. You think he would do that to you? Your dad's holding on. Tell him it's okay to let him to go now. The biggest thing happened, a man who was so knocked out on morphine that the doctor thought he was dead, all of a sudden showed sign of emotional life. I'll tell you about this in a second. Maybe one of the reasons that I'm driven to talk about this today is I have word that I can share now specific details. You know, the partner of the show, Alan Soaps, young Alan, the young man who's nonverbal, so high on the autism spectrum, but a great inventor of soaps and fragrances of soaps and Alansoaps.com/taught is the website. This is the soaps we talk about all the time, made in America all natural, three generations of soap making expertise behind them, huge quality soap, hired now, we have three people, three young people working there that the rest of the world of the party would rather see stored in a box or having been aborted. I can now share this with you that John, who is the dad of Alan, and he's the business guy behind Alan Soaps, John went to the doctor yesterday to have yet another screening. John's had a whole series of health issues. It now may well be lung cancer. So John was appreciative yesterday that we prayed together, and I would ask you if you have a relationship with the Lord Jesus and they're saved by him, that you would pray for wisdom for the doctors and discernment and strength for John. It would be a very, very difficult thing for young Alan to lose John. It would be a very difficult thing for us and the show to lose John. John knows where he's going. He's going with Jesus. There's no doubt. There's no doubt. No doubt. So if you could say that prayer, and here I am talking about my father passing, I was an older guy. I mean, I was 28 years old, something, or maybe an older. And Alan's only 13. So it would be catastrophically difficult for them. The Lord would see them through it, no doubt, no doubt. But if we would just pray for our John and appreciate that. So after the doctor left the room and told us, yeah, it's July 4th, your dad's not going to die on this day. My dad started to say something in his morphine stupor. Malumum. What? No, not me. He started to say every few minutes, and even got clearer, "I love you." I've puzzled for many years how a guy who can barely breathe was able to utter those words of you. It was a thing he most wanted to get through to us at midnight because I wouldn't lie on that midnight, 12 on 1 a.m., July 5th, I said, "Dad, you did it. We had a wonderful Fourth of July together, a wonderful Independence Day. You can go. You can let go. You did it." And a little while after that, he stopped speaking, stopped saying, "I love you. The brush got so shallow. I was so tired. And I still sat there by the edge of the bed when I would hear him distress, I'd wake up and activate the pump. And then for the first time since, I guess, probably 5.30 the previous morning, I fell asleep for about two minutes. And in that two-minute period, I know this because I asked my brother later how long I was asleep. He said, "You're about two minutes." I fell asleep for about two minutes, and my dad died. And my brother described it to me, and dad just went, "Oh." And in my sleep, I didn't know this. And then I heard my brother say, "Taught." And I woke up, and I knew. And this is maybe morbid or weird, but I did everything I could to inhale. I wanted to inhale the last breath of my father. Ah, man, sorry for the bait and switch on the show this morning. It's just been a while since I've told the story. So having inhaled his last breath, then the rest of my dad's commands came to me. His promise, "Remember, son, do not mourn my body. I will not be there." My dad had accepted the Lord Jesus in the hospital. I'd like to say that God used me for that. He had planted some seeds. Ultimately, it was a pot-smoking hippie pastor from North Idaho who still has a pot-smoking hippie church. Pot was given us by God. He's a responsible pot user, if there's such a thing. I happen to think marijuana is very bad for you. But it was through the pot-smoking hippie pastor who had a great relationship with the Indian tribes up there. My dad loved the native people, loved working on the reservation, loved being made an honorary tribe member. It was a huge, huge honor for him. I remember that. Never forget that. He wore around his neck something that one of the medicine men gave him all while in the hospital. And he'd accepted Jesus, "Do not mourn my body." I said to my brother and his now wife, "We have to leave." What can we stay? No. Dad was clear. We're not going to sit here and mourn his body. He's not in it. My dad hated his body. I'm so glad to know he will have a new and glorified one. So very difficult thing to walk out of a room with, quote, "your dad" left behind, even though it's his body. And I was just absolutely driven to talk to the desk people and said, "I know this is so strange, but I can't leave without knowing what's going to happen to my dad's body. What's the process here?" We already knew where I was going to go, the mortuary, where I had that all worked out, but what's going to happen? And they said, "Well, your father will be moved over to this location. You guys did want an autopsy. We're going to do that autopsy. And then your father's body will be delivered to." And she got there. I said, "So is that going to happen today?" She said, "Yes. Is there a way you can let me know where he's at? Where his body's at?" She said, "Sure. We can call you." They were so good. She went through that process of getting my sister back over and her husband's. And we made a decision to do exactly. The other thing dad told us to do was you are going to go out and you're going to either have a huge garbage load of hamburgers and french fries and beer or root beer or pizza. You're going to go eat. You're going to celebrate my life, but you're going to do it as a brother and sister. There wasn't a real argument about where to go. It had to be this place called the dog house. My dad's heart was always with the Washington State University Cougars, which is where he got his undergrad degree. But he liked the Huskies just fine, so where he went to graduate school. So we did, but guys, this is the first time I can tell you that I absolutely can look you, are we in this camera, that I can actually look you in the eye and tell you, I encountered my dad's soul. There's no doubt that I encountered my dad's soul. It was in the parking garage. And my car had been there since just before 7 AM, the previous day, it was an expensive parking job. And I was waiting in line to pay, there's probably 10 people in front of me. And all of a sudden, above me, above me came the most beautiful feeling of joy, above me, a feeling of joy. And then I felt my father's voice inside my head. I felt it. I didn't hear it. I felt it. I felt it in my body. My dad said, I can move. I can move. I can fly. I had no anticipation of such a thing. And I started to laugh and cry in the parking garage and I spoke out loud and said, well done, dad, you died a great death. Well done. And we went over to me to the restaurant. I'll complete this in just a second. Wow, the way this partner announcements are working out today, this is nuts. Yeah, I would have absolutely gone and taken over my dad's house and I would have gone through the medicine cabinets and said, we are done with the ibuprofen. For God's sake, we're done medicating you with wine. I know you're probably an alcoholic, so we're going to work our way down and I'm not going to force you to go cold turkey. But on the ibuprofen, dad, this is killing you. The autopsy showed my dad had liver disease and probably because of the alcohol, definitely because of the overuse of ibuprofen, it wasn't just the autopsy that said that my, I had a therapist at the time who was a psychiatrist, a reformed pill pusher. She no longer prescribed medications. She just thought that they were just terrible. She read that having been to med school and came back and said, yeah, it's pretty clear your dad destroyed his liver and probably with the ibuprofen, the wine wasn't helping because my dad had probably 12, maybe 16 ibuprofen a day because he was in so much pain because he just so mistreated his body differently than me. I mean, I don't mistreat my body, I think, but I'm constantly exercising and pushing very hard. My dad was constantly eating and pushing very hard and it just added up in a lot of inflammation. I'll just tell you exactly, exactly what I would have told him. Trade for trade, ibuprofen makes inflammation worse, it assaults your liver, it assaults your kidneys, it's bad for your brain, it's pharma and circle right back to the beginning. It's making the inflammation worse. It is only masking the symptoms on the other side of this, native path krill. It is going to reduce the inflammation. It's going to protect your heart and your liver and immune system. It is far more absorbable, far more potent, far more effective than fish based omega threes because of its potency as a crustacean krill with a K is a crustacean. It is a purer form of this in that these krill live in the antarctic. These aren't farmed krill, by the way, they come out of the antarctic and those are the purest waters in the ocean. So I would have said to my dad, I am, the ibuprofen is gone, it's in the landfill or I've burned it, here's your native path krill and yeah, take more if you need it. I am, says said the other day, I'm going to be taking more because I'm upping my volume of exercise as I get near to seal fit. So I will say it to you, if you or a loved one is eating ibuprofen, stop it please. Go to nativepathkrill.com/tod and just see the specials they have for you there. That's nativepathkrill.com/tod, nativepathkrill.com/tod. So we get to the dog house and I walk into the bathroom in a bar that has been playing modern music. So the hits of the day, because it's a bar for college kids, the hits of the day. I remember going, oh my gosh, we have to put up with this music for college kids and we're sitting here and we ordered pizza and hamburgers, by the way. I was pretty gluttonous at that point. I was at my not quite 400 pounds. I started losing weight, but I was probably, that was probably 280, 280. So I started the process of dropping fat, this is a lot less than 400 or 380. I don't know that was ever 400, but 380, 390. And as I'm in the bathroom, it's now, all of a sudden, the music pauses and the song turn, turn, turn comes on. The bird's version of turn, turn, turn. From the book of Ecclesiastes, for every season there's a time, a time to live, a time to die. And I'm listening to this going, how in the world is this on? And it was my dad's favorite folk rock song. Dad was a country music guy. He didn't like much folk rock, but when that came on, he turned that up. I thinking this has to just be on in the bathroom, but I walked outside. It wasn't just on in the bathroom. It played. I sat down and it went back to hits of the day. This is one song. And I even told my sister and her and her husband about the significance of that from the book of Ecclesiastes. So we ate, we talked about dad, we toasted him, talked about what he would have ordered the restaurant, which would, his joke would have been one of everything. Then he'd say, "What are you guys going to eat?" I went home. And at that point, it was probably two or three o'clock, maybe later. And I've been up since 530 the previous day with that little two minutes of sleep. And two cats, Schmidian Floyd, if you have to have me push you to tell you, okay, I'll tell you, I'll tell you they're Schmidian Floyd, both of them female. I went and laid down on a futon couch. I'd eaten ice cream because 280, who cares. And Schmidi, the orange-ish cat, the tiger-type orange-ish cat, pretty much orange, a little tiger stripe. She came and she laid down on me. And I went to sleep. And I fell asleep. And I passed out and in that sleep, I woke up feeling my dad's beard against my face. And I opened my eyes. I made sure, like, wait, what am I feeling? I was feeling his beard. He grew this incredibly luxurious beard, thick, beautiful beard in the hospital. People told me it's because of the hormone, the thyroid deficiency, your hair can get really thick. To make sure I was awake, I petted the cat, Schmidi. And then, once again, I felt my father's voice. It's not hearing it, it's not seeing it, it's feeling it, from the inside out. My father said this, "Where is your sister?" And I spoke aloud. I said, "Dad, she had to leave to make sure that she has a successful birth. She's staying with a friend, and I don't know where that friend is." They'd come over from Spokane to be there, so she was staying with a friend. I thought my dad said, "I have to go, please tell her I love her." I said, "I will." That was the last time I ever heard my father's voice or felt it. That was July 5th. There's a whole bunch of news we could have talked about, Hunter Biden being brought into the White House meetings. Steve Bannon just broke this reporter, Jonathan Carr with ABC, just busted him over his rhetorical knee. Brian Stelter going back and forth on Joe Biden's dementia. There's so much. And we'll get to this next week. We're going to take some time off for July 5th and July 4th. So so many things we could have covered, and some cultural stuff we'll get to next week about online dating, but here's the show clothes, ready? You and everyone you know will die. You have a soul. I am telling you. I met my father's. I am telling you, I spoke with a Catholic priest, a very strict Orthodox Russian Catholic priest who was there when his father died. His father rejected God, even until the last second refused to reconcile with God. His father was dead. They kept the equipment on. His father was dead for about 15 minutes. And then though the brain scan didn't show anything, the organ activity didn't show anything. They had the alarms off, but the equipment on, that man's body, that man's body sat up in bed and said, oh, my soul, oh God, oh no, my soul. The brain monitor, the organ monitors recorded nothing. You'll face it. Where are you going? It's knowable. Accept the Lord Jesus as your Lord and Savior. Ask Him into your life. Ask Him to change you. You'll be filled with the Holy Spirit. It's not going to solve your problems. You will still get lonely, you'll still get angry, but over a process of time He will change you. I will give you this warning. You're going to hate disappointing God as you grow. Independence Day is tomorrow. We have independence from the sting of death if we want it. So do you want it? Again, sorry for the bait and switch. I've always pledged to always be honest with you. There's simply no way I could have done the political show today, just couldn't. This is the Todd Herman Show, please go be well, go be strong, go be kind and go and make a decision. [music]