JESS B. Real Podcast

No Daddy

Baby let's not act like we don't live in 2024! The single mother household, which is the main function of most children, outside of those seldom few single father households. Either way, being a single parent isn't for the faint. But its worse when you choose a sperm donor, who doesn't understand that if we procreate together, I won't be providing for the child alone. Chile, I aint have NO DADDY! Coming from a former daddy's girl, who has given hope, and constant disappointment, my life has no comparison to @prinxess.chelsea . Babyyyyyyyyy...tap in..let's get all the way real!

Duration:: 58m
Broadcast on:: 28 Jul 2024
Audio Format:: mp3

(upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) - Hey guys, what's going on? It should girl just be real, and I'm here with none other than y'all favorite person. - Who me, me, hey y'all. - That's what you gonna say, say y'all? You been talking about getting back on the podcast, and all you gonna say to these people is, "Hey y'all, I have to give 'em a little bit of southern hospitality, which is something we will get in on this podcast." 'Cause baby we got a lot to talk about, and I'm throwin' some things in there to talk to Jessica about that she don't even know. - How's that part about topic today? - A lot of things are part of our topic, but when you find the topic, it'll all form to when it's all about dynamics. - Well, all I'm gonna say is this. Chelsea's claim she wanna get on here so she can do her own episode. She has it that two weeks ago. Actually, has she come up to me about any topics or anything yet about how she wants to do this damn podcast episode? She claims she wanna take over so fuckin' bad. - I have, and I told her I'm not tellin' her. - And I did not tell y'all the last time she was tellin' what the fuck she doin'. She not comin' the fuck on here. - When did you tell them that? - I told them that last episode, "See if you listen, you would've known that shit." - Yeah, I used to get like VIP, like as soon as she recorded, she was sendin' to me, like, "Hey babe, listen to this." And she stopped doin' that, so I stopped pressing her about it, and I'll listen like throwin' to y'all when that episodes come out, probably at the end of the season, just a binge, 'cause I hear her voice enough as it is. - It's melodic, ain't it? - It's chaotic, ain't it? - And why the fuck are you hearin'? - Why am I here? - Yeah. - Because the next step put it into bunk beds? - Anyway, I was tryin' her talkin' her shit. I was tryin' her talkin' her shit. The real reason why I brought Chelsea back, 'cause it seems like she was a hit for the season premiere, so I'm like, "Let me bring this little controversial ass person back." (laughing) But there's my cat. - It means controversial. If anything, I feel like y'all like me, 'cause I'm a breath of fresh air, and compared to what just could be havin' goin' on in her life, don't shit really be goin' on over here. I just talk shit and go by my business. - Emphasis on a talk shit part. - Yeah, really talk shit, and-- - Yeah, why you tellin' me you're gonna really talk shit? - 'Cause I'm the daddy one, and on top of that, I be so chill. I want y'all to know how chill I am doin' this podcast and how shit's still gonna flow. I'm over here playin' the fuckin' Sims the whole episode, but I'm bein' too, and I'm givin' to see y'all straight. So, don't worry about that. - Anyway, like I was sayin'. - Today's episode is called, what's today's episode called, Chelsea? - I think we said that today's episode was like, no daddy's girl, not daddy's girl, or fuck them niggas that wanna be daddy's girl. (laughing) Something along them lines. - Okay, so it is-- - Can't raise a name. - No daddy's girl, okay, that's what it is. Okay, so today's episode, as Chelsea was kinda enough to share with y'all, no daddy's girl, but y'all probably like, just what the fuck do you mean no daddy's girl? Y'all know I told y'all some point in time over these seasons, I feel like now, since it's been like 11 seasons, I feel like I've given you enough of me when it comes to me, and like my personal shit, and what I've experienced, and like shared other people's stories, and all this other stuff, and like, made me relatable. But I feel like I haven't really given y'all the history of the extensions of why, Jessica, no, I'm about to say Jessica. - Is this her name? - Right, how Jess B. Real came up with the name of Jess B. Real, of the moniker Jess unexplainable, because literally shit is just unexplainable to like, explaining, and I feel like it's long overdue time for my fan bam to understand why we have these extensions, i.e. relatives, 'cause I will not say family, 'cause at this point I'm at the age where a family is something that's chosen, that I have these relatives that I share a bloodline with, that have made a major impact on my life. Now don't get it twisted, it's not like, oh my God, they fucking are so bad, they messed up my life, like I'm blaming somebody, but I'm saying they did play a part, and I take accountability for how, what do they say all the time? You can't change your traumas, but it's your decision, it's your business to change your behaviors. So changing the behaviors by not dealing with the fucking traumas, traumas, or, that's from my fucking sage, traumas, or dealing with the people collectively, and understanding people are who they are, until they can take accountability, that big A word, not asshole, accountability, then we really can't fuck with each other. So, no daddy's girl stems from the main thing, which I feel like I'm not the only one which is why I brought Chelsea, because we literally have two different dynamics of how daddy's girl life is supposed to be, or daddy's girl, the experience of non-daddy's girls we've been, and I feel like for me, I've been an excuse for my father, and at this point now, it's like, bitch, we're taking off the veil, because I can't shadow you anymore, and allow your behaviors to be excusable, 'cause at 70 fucking years on my nigga, I don't care if you're a baby when we're not, you wanna do better, you'll do better, and since you're not doing better, nigga, I'm gonna let the world know how much you've had an impact on how I deal with people, my supposed aggression, or aggressive behaviors, and tone that I give, the way that I personally feel in a way, also impacted my sexuality in a way, because I really always thought I was a nigga in a relationship when I was dating females, and had this misogynistic attitude of being a woman I was back in the day, which I've heard about. So no better person to bring on her than my girlfriend, because she's had her own experiences, and I would never wanna share somebody else's story that's not my place in my business. When they get, they're more than willing to share themselves and speak for themselves, and that's them. But I know I'm one of many girls, or black girls out there, or many girls, period, who either doesn't have their dad around, has had another man step in and be a father, and really take on that role to be a father, has had daddy issues, and now you're in your grown-ass age where their father issues, has no relationship with their father. Their father was not alive or, you know, as deceased, where they don't have that impact, or have never had that male figure, maybe I signed up a brother, uncle, family member, cousin. And then also had it where that male figure wasn't around and never protected you, as he should, because everybody knows a daughter's first love is her father. - Thank you. - Suppose, as they, that's the cliche anecdote, her daughter's first love. - The cliche is fuck. It's not a joke. - Stereotypical anecdote is, if a girl's first love is her father, her father, they choose men that her father, normally girls choose the men that are similar to her father, or replicate her father, or they choose the man that probably is polar opposite, 'cause her father's not worth the fucking damn. But I wanna speak for a lot of us fatherless children. - I'm sorry. I'm gonna speak for a lot of us fatherless children. Jessica's gonna speak for a lot of y'all, hopscotch in and out fathers, because that's what she has. I'm 100% fatherless. As of like 12, I haven't seen that man. So I'm gonna speak for the fatherless, and she's gonna speak for the hopscotch days. - When the fuck did she come up with the hopscotch? 'Cause they hop in and out the hopscotch daddies. (laughing) - I think it's cute. That's why I'm just asking. - Let me give it to my kids. - So that's where we're at, and I feel it's a topic that's not discussed enough, 'cause then you also have fathers who are active that you be looking like them. Why wasn't? 'Cause you know, I'm sure at some point in a lot of time, you had your mom say that, oh, who was this person? Like, oh, that's the one who could've been your daddy, and you be looking like nigga, that's who the fuck you should've chose, 'cause I'm sure there's dead be that as nigga. He chose to procreate with, wasn't probably your, wasn't the best bet, now that you look back. I'm sure that, and how's that nigga's life going right now? 'Cause I'm pretty sure he's probably a better fucker than the sperm donor you gave me. And you hear how I wanna say father sperm donor, 'cause that's exactly what the fuck they are, sperm donors. They're only here for procreate. But now that we're in a society where you could just have the same thing and just do whatever, I mean, hey, this would be the perfect time for y'all niggas to just be out here being sperm donors, 'cause it's a thing when you have sperm banks and cryo banks when niggas just need sperm, and they don't need you to be active. So I don't know if you're right, 'cause some of y'all niggas should've did that from day one and never should sign the fucking birth certificate. But some of y'all, I'm glad you did. I eat my father, 'cause that child support was great. - My baby, it's not no birth certificate, but it should never be put in my child's support, so you didn't have to sign, shaped, and maybe if facial DNA's and all of that, if I look like you, I'm yours. Don't try to play me like the teens. - So that's today's episode, and-- - Another little surprise topic, y'all. You know, we go off on a tangent, so we're gonna talk about a whole bunch of stuff, but y'all are gonna enjoy it, so let's get this intro rolling, and let's get into the real stuff. - We already did the intro, so get into the real stuff. - Oh, I could tell what's up, I don't know. - Anyways, so I'm gonna let Jessica go first, because some of her fatherly triggers her research just as of lately, and I have done a good job of suppressing and working through months, because, like I said, the last time I really talked to my dad for real for I was 12, and I'm 23. Like, he tried to come back and pull his bullshit of, "Oh, let's go to lunch, I wanna take you to lunch." How long ago, babe, about the couple months ago? - It was like three, four months ago. - Three, four months ago, he tried to come in like, "Oh, I wanna take you to lunch." Oh, it came up, "Oh, I gotta work, okay, cool." But let's reschedule, and so he's tried that shit recently, but I cuss him at home at this point, as soon as Mom said. - Just like to know how long you've been cursing him out because this is not nothing new. - It's not nothing new. I started cussing him out at a very early age. Mom said she'll say you can express your feelings, and if you feel like he's a dead piece of shit, tell him, and I tell him every fucking time, because although I said I'm gonna let Jessica go first, I guess I'm gonna get into it. Although he is my father, he is a father too many more. He's like Father Abraham, how many sons? - And this is many daughters. - Abraham, yes. My dad is a man of five daughters. - And let me tell you something, just not to cut her off. Any man you know that got less than but female, nothing but daughters, the niggas had a hell of a past like where they fucked too many women over and that was their fucking karma. - So yeah, five daughters. And you should be like Chelsea, oh well you have sisters. Ask me how many of those sisters I've met, zero. I don't know any of my sisters. I know none of my siblings, I know none of his family. Like I just know my father. And like it gets even worse to where the only time I ever really encounter my sister is a child support court and the courtroom day here. My mom was like, yup, there's your sister. I guess she was going in there. Her mom is about to go try to get money from your dad too. Like that's the only time. He's a sorry excuse of a man because every time it came to him doing something like coming to see me go off to prom or coming to graduations or even when my grandma died, the man was nowhere to be found. But your cousins that only had little inklings of moments in my life were there. You didn't do shit. But if I were to go, I can get rich and make a million dollars. You would be the first one in my door talking about something. Oh, that's my daughter. 'Cause he did shit all the time. My mom was at a party, money her business. And one of my dad's ex coworkers came up that used to be like friends with my mom. So they were cordial. And he came out of his mouth to be like, oh yeah, I wouldn't want a daughter either. That only called me for money. - Baby, how? - You don't do shit else for me. I call you for graduations. I'll call you when I was having car problems. I'll call you for prom. But he also had to audacity, your friend had to audacity to tell my mom, but he'd be up at the job, bragging about her all the time. All of her compliments and all of her accolades. But you're not there for none of 'em. You're not there for not one single one. So why are you talking about me like you know me? Like you took me to tennis practice. Like he was there when I was trying to do horseback riding. Like when I was at that all-white school making good grades and doing shit, where the fuck was you? Nowhere, always telling me your truck was flipping over. 'Cause you always, you fell in for a bit. - That's so wild ass lie to say your truck flips over. You're driving at 18-wheeler. Why would you wanna wish it on your own life to be deceased? Like that's not no minor shit to fucking happen. - Like you at this point, my number has never changed. My number has been the same. I got it, my number's so easy. It's like one of the- - Even though she'd be wanting to change it. - I don't wanna change my number. I love my number. - Yeah until Nick is, nevermind. That's the home of the time. - That's a different topic. But yeah, it's just like, I would give him time and time again. As a kid, any of the little moments, like he would come, he came to one of my birthday parties. Or anytime I would see my dad, when I was in the ages of like one to five, I was a daddy's girl. 'Cause that's my father. Like anytime he would come over, although long story short, he was never really coming over for me. He was coming over for my mom, because he was still trying to get at her. - That's a lot of y'all, Nick is. I'mma just try to go with my baby. Momma used my child as a poem so I could get some pussy. - And it's like, what? But I was like, such a daddy's girl. Like, oh my god, I love my dad. My dad's so cool, I'mma call my daddy. Oh, I'mma run away, I'mma go with my daddy. Or anytime I used to get mad at my mom, I'mma change my last name. Tanash, because Robert, the fuck face, dumb ass Nash, Junior, is trifling. - That's right, that's what it would be a Junior. - He is a Junior. trifling. - Over here trying to soil your whack ass oats. Your name name ain't Prince Akim. - Like, seriously, and they say like, "Arks me." Which I guess in the beginning, why I was trying to get just gonna make men to have relationships. - Do y'all hear this? Make sure y'all hurt, run that back, stand it again for the people in the back. In the beginning, in my mother's voice. In the beginning. - In the beginning. Like, when we went up to New York in March. - No, before then. - Before then. - Because remember, I wasn't really, I was rekindling with my dad, but I wasn't really on that level where I was trying to have him active in my life. 'Cause I was good at a distance. - So I was just trying to get her to reconnect the relationships because I have five sisters. I have one sister that's not deceased. She liked the same year I graduated high school. She was an accident, if I'm correct. This is how I don't even know. Like, I don't even really know how, but I know she did because that's the same year I graduated. My dad was supposed to buy mine. High school classroom. He promised me he would do it and he didn't do it because mysteriously, which I'm not gonna lie, and I don't play about no life. So if she did, I rest her soul to a sister I'd never met. But he was paying for funeral stuff. So he couldn't buy my classroom. But this, like, a sister that's had a whole life, I never met. I have literal nieces and nephews. I've never met. I'm kinda glad I switched over to the woman side of things because, quite frankly, I would've never known who I was dating. Could've been dating anybody. Like, I know nobody on that side of his family. He never brought me around. I don't, he never established relationships with anybody. And I just look just like the ugly man. I'm just cute. I hate ugly, but I'm gorgeous. Okay. But it's just like, yeah. - And that too, which you're trying to say, you're trying to make amends for me to do what? - I was trying to make amends for Jessica to make relationships with her sisters because I never got the opportunity. And I'm not saying I never will get the opportunity to do because I'll be the first one at 10 minutes, to get them right up on them. I can say, for 23 years of my life, I was supposed to have a father. - Damn, we're trying to make him dead before he turned 24. Shit. - I don't know. For X, Y, Z, I'm not even here for my life. I was supposed to have a father. - And I did it. So if y'all think I'm about to get up here and say something nice about this man, I'm not. - But that's because she wanted to at least have her kids have aunties 'cause she knew I had sisters. - Yeah, but now they have a slew of internet podcasts, listeners, unseasoned uncles. That's gonna make sure they're straight. - And then we have family that we've chosen at our friends where I call family that if they'll have enough aunties and uncles. - Who can be these aunties? - Well, we discussed some of them. We know justice. Y'all know justice. - Justice is an uncle. - Right. Oh, I don't know. We haven't decided that yet. - Yes, because... - But besides the point, we're getting off topic. - You know, we're on any topic we wanna talk about which y'all is a privilege. So all topics are on the table. - This ain't your podcast, nigga. - This ain't her podcast when I'm on the mindset. - Yeah, that's what you think. Anyway, so she wanted me to try to reconnect or connect with my sisters. And at this point, last year was my first time stopping to see my dad in six years, which I've told y'all. - She took me with her. - No, last year, you weren't with me last year. In April. - This is what you last year, just not in April. - Exactly my point. So you weren't with me last year, like I said. When I stopped to go see him for the first time in six years since he moved to Philly. And I didn't have to, but I chose him because it was kind of just like, at this point, you're getting older. You know, you wanna at least make a mess. Try to find a way to have a relationship with your parent, even though they're stuck in their ways or not gonna really acknowledge your feelings. Like, you know, the same old bullshit. You can't change your family, but you could just change, change, interact. And at least if you make the efforts, it's not nothing bad. So I did that. Then I made the efforts and attempts because my Chelsea again wanted me to rekindle my sisters because she really hasn't had a relationship with her sisters. And I did. Like, to the point I even made a rekindling with a sister, I knew in reality I would never fuck with again. But to appease my girlfriend to have the ability, availability. - And then she says appease, she's to try things. - A piece, 'cause I already knew where I was at. - Well, something else could've changed. - Yeah, I am again, she's right. - Who is, 'cause I changed, people could change too. So I was trying to be open and receptive, but too bad some people don't, they still seem shitting on the same part, no matter how far the party is, they don't give a fuck to letting it overflow. But the same bullshit is what happened. So I gave my sister the chance and opportunity. And mind you, that was what, February? It's what, July, I seen the bitch twice. - One, two, 'cause it was four said because he went to breakfast. - BCBM, BM, the M one, okay. - So I seen her because he went to breakfast and my dad was there and that's when Chelsea met his raggedy ass wife. - I met, okay, no, I met her that I prior, though, too. - Yeah, but she had breakfast with her, my other two sisters, that was her first time really interacting with my sisters. And this one, my middle sister pissed her off because of the fuck away she ordered food. - It's like picky people, like if we in a restaurant for the people, it's a diner at that. - And you and I want my eggs every easy. I don't want my toast touching, but I need six home fries extra crispy on all the sides. And I need three pieces of bacon medium well. And I don't want any of my food to touch. And I want a soft tea. - As you were saying before we were really interrupted. - By Mother J. - 'Cause my mother just don't. She all, mind you, my mother will never call me. And the time she called me the worst times when I'm actually doing shit. And because she's on emergency bypass, she fucks up my whole program. - Look into our regularly scheduled programming. Her sister is just like super picky. We're in a diner. It's like six people at a table. - A diner, not no fucking Michelin star restaurant. - You uninvited your own solicited cousin that's only related to you and your other sister. And I mean, if you are a part of the blood of Christ and you don't like my relationship, you, I can respect that. But please don't introduce me as just, oh, this is my sister's brain. First of all, I have a fucking name. And be honest, I'm a girlfriend. I do a lot of things to her. - Oh my God. (laughs) - So fucking. - So that's where that was. - Mind you, she's the sister that lives down here and literally lives like 20 minutes away. So I tried to give her the benefit of that. We met up, we had conversation. Of course, there's a bunch of projection, conversation, not much accountability, but always wanted to have change. Now we always know, you wanna be the change. You have to be the change you wanna see, which means you have to put in the effort to make things work better, which means you have to be halfway. I'm not gonna have to put in effort. I put in effort reaching out to you to fucking have this conversation. I put in effort in the beginning, trying to check in, see how you were doing. Whenever you have this victim fucking mindset, which is when my older sister just said that was just here visiting, which is a whole conversation. We'll get into that later. And was like, she didn't wanna be bilingual here 'cause she has this victim mindset. The whole family says she has a victim mindset and don't wanna hear the "what was me" bullshit because she's very much a narcissist. Yes, my sister is a fucking narcissist and doesn't know how to not have a conversation that's not revolving around her. Anyway, you could be like, oh, I'm bleeding. Oh, I'm in the hospital. Well, you know what? I'm not searching in my hand. You know what? I don't really feel like I'm a bitch. We're not talking about you. Oh, yeah, I'm bringing you around. We're not on you, baby. This is not your time to shine. Be in the background. I'm listening to what lasts Friday. But we're not there yet. But nonetheless, I gave it a chance. We haven't really spoke. I seen her again when we went to the diner and again, when I dropped it for shit and I made the bitch meet me in the parking lot, my apartment complex is getting to know where the fuck I live. I don't fuck with you like that. Fuck with you. And this comes from the fact of she's had rejection from my father supposedly her entire life, but again, she's a fabricator. So she makes some shit and literally, you know how they say people are delusional? Well, they tell each other themselves their own lives so much that they start to fucking believe it. When five people go against your several lives, at this point, bitch, you're a fucking delusional. You need to be in the mental hospital that you work at. 'Cause none of your stories are adding up. And some of them are for people who were a part of your village and watched you grow up and even said themselves that your stories make no fucking sense. So, and then for you to say that these stories are accurate and still interact with somebody who's done you so fucking grimy and you have yet to fully address them about it, how much does it really bother you? It doesn't bother her that much because if, and I mean, if I'll be honest, honestly, if I was a mom at a young age, three kids, three different baby daddies, and my father would let me stay with him, I don't care how bad I mean, like, if I gotta do what I gotta do and you're gonna dream me away, but you're gonna cradle and coddle me, I guess I would stay but make up the lies because if he lets you stay with him, how was he treating you so poorly? - Roger, we're talking about for years, like decade and some change. You lived in this house, right, free. - Right up under him. - With your kids and your husband, one of your husbands, all you did was pay the electricity bill and a fucking cable. - Because you could have found a provider and I feel like that's another reason why just 'cause this is jealous. It's because Jessica went off and found her a very mature provider. - None of the lies, Jessica went off on her own and left outside her normal habitat, which is something they wanted to do. No, that's something they wanted to do. It never got the opportunity to do that. - They didn't do that either, but we're talking about us 'cause they be hating on our love. - But none of us, we'll come back to that. - I have a question for y'all. Do y'all think is where we celebrate every month? (laughing) - This question will not go off. - Like we celebrate every month, every 29th, I mean 23rd. - What? Don't touch me. - Shut up, you know I was just speaking fast. Please stop being retarded. I apologize, that is not a good word to say. I apologize, but sometimes Jessica's just over. - The proper word is remedial. - Something gets looked in those a little too well. - I know 'cause I'm dating you. (laughing) - You're gonna abuse me on, this is gonna be forever. You're gonna let people know that you've been abusing me. - Crazy. - Yeah, we're gonna talk about something. We'll talk about that later. But what the fuck was I saying? See, she do too much. - Stretch, every 23rd, 29th, 23rd of the month. - Yes, every 23rd of the month, we celebrate the moment we met. And maybe I was just trying to say like, the month that we met. - The 29th, there's a 29th. Focus, just focus. - Anyways, we celebrate every day, every month, the 23rd. - Are you feeling like her? - When we met, she hasn't fed me. I'm kinda hungry. - Your tacos is in there. - Oh my God, for me. - No, they give, but finish. - So yeah, we celebrate on the dot every month. And people are like, oh yeah, I'm gonna write every month. It's gonna be good, when did y'all stop celebrating? 'Cause y'all been together 50 years saying you just stopped celebrating after a year or one. We gonna celebrate every month and we gonna celebrate every year because every relationship milestone is big and it deserves to be celebrated to keep the spontaneity of your life. - Oh, you died, you did it. - Because those also kinda counteractive, so make sure that we at least have one monthly date night as well. But as life gets busy working two different schedules or whatever, like we just beat all over the place, just get her own little things she go off and do and I do my own things. But we now on the 23rd of every month, we stop what we're doing and we enjoy and celebrate the love, which we just hit how many months? - Double digits. Double digits. I know it's still young. Young love, it's only 10 months, but in two months, it'll be a year and Diana is gonna go here to tell me shit 'cause she gonna be pregnant with my baby. - Oh my God, can you focus? - I can't focus. These people know when I get to them, I got baby, H-G, whatever comes to my front lobe which is still not fully developed, so I'm sorry. - Sorry gonna say what your whole premise is 'cause you never got to the full part of the topic. - I hear you're supposed to business up. - We're not talking about that. We're talking about the fact that you wanted me to rekindle, we're on the fact of-- - Girl, if you're not ever, I can feel like we begin to the point is I want to hurt a rekindled period, that was it. - No, it's not what was it because me rekindling was off the strength of you wanting me to-- - And she don't like her. She don't like them, so it's not gonna happen, period. - And then that also stems from the fact of who? - Her father, Debbie, period. - Yeah, you gonna say it, Debbie, that's crazy. It's coming from you 'cause you was such a big advocate for this man. - That's what you would define as, Debbie, period. He cool, he just did some shitty things as recently as like, it's no excuse. I still have respect for your father, he's your father. You, you, you, you, you, not too long ago, you was like, "Hi, daddy, I'm like Danny, Johnny, hey, Danny." - 'Cause she's such a daddy's girl. Just like, she wants to be a daddy's girl so bad. - I was one. - And she still is. She's upset with her father right now because he, he, he fucked her over. - He plays in my fucking face. Like, don't ever play in my face and they say like, oh, you can't come to North Carolina and you don't wanna fly, you don't wanna do all this shit. I've been down here a little in our six fucking years and you made it your business to come down here. Yeah, and so you traveled to a fucking Atlantic city for my older sister's birthday just to show the fuck up and take her to Carmines. - Was there with her this weekend? - Right, take her to Carmines, but you're gonna see her again this upcoming weekend and make it your business, but you let it still let my older sister tell her he don't show up for her either, bitch, how? How, sway? You don't get a car, but then they could drove a whole hour and a half to come see you and took you to dinner. - And from what Jessica says, this Carmine's restaurant is expensive. - Super expensive. - Never been. - So cut the bullshit and it's like y'all wanna have this sob story to make my, make our father feel like or their father and my sperm donor to feel like he's a dead BTS, but that nigga raised y'all. Not saying he probably was the best at it, but he pretty much gave y'all enough effort 'cause one, you got to live, one of them got to live with him fucking damn near, boot y'all and be rent free. The other one, he shows up and whenever you call him to do whatever, he shows the fuck up. - Look here. So it's like, let's be for real cause, Jessica's father only did for her because Mama Jay played no games. Okay, and I was only with child support and made sure that nigga picked me up from basketball practices because she was like, you're not gonna just be a financial father. You're gonna some do some type of fucking cause this shit, I didn't make her on my own. - Didn't lay down and didn't go by myself. - So he made sure he stepped the fuck up in some type of way, not saying that she could force his hand, but whatever thought process I had of you growing up and that's what I want a lot of y'all, boy, men, boys to understand I wanna be-- - And children. - Want to understand whatever notion, don't always try to button the baby, Mama, say to baby, my God, I'm going on your head, like the child doesn't have their mind of their own, like they can't see things and witness what the fuck is going on, like they're dumb. Kids see everything, kids are very smart and very much nowadays these kids today are very much well aware. So whatever fucking feelings they have towards you is because they're watching how you move and operate. Because my dad, I will say this much. My dad didn't know how to fucking be a father cause he never had a father. Because I think it was adopted and his real father pretty much abandoned him and gave him up for adoption to his aunt because she can't have kids and raise his fucking wife's kids until his death and she don't like his own, but never raised his own fucking 13 fucking kids, baby. My dad has always been fucked up in the fucking head. He ain't been right, which I've given him a pass as an excuse or allowed it to be I understand that you had a life prior to me. But now that you're damn near 70 and you say you wanna do better and you now have grandkids and have the opportunity to have grow grandkids and want to do better, especially because I'm the youngest of the three who literally had a been around you only for quality time. And I have yet to have kids. You're making it where you'll never be active in your grandkids life. First of all, I'm not gonna have your fucking name last name. Anyway, certainly like they're not gonna know what a white head is. - Give it us too many last names. - But nonetheless, they're not gonna, I don't use a fucking last name as is for real, for real now. 'Cause it has no merit to do shit for me. Outside of me having to put my legal last name. - Oh, we are a legal last name B soon. - P-P. P-P. It's gonna be P, P-E-A-Y. That's gonna be P-A. (laughs) I'll pronounce it P-A. - And I'll put you in the face and I'll punch them other ones 'cause I have a whole slew of people with the same last name. Say it just like that. That don't come around. 'Cause they think they lose you. But you're just black. You have a slave owner's last name too. P-A ain't gonna make you no better. You're a nigga. Nigga ain't about to be Trump's America if y'all don't go fucking vote. Try not. (laughs) - But nonetheless, you haven't done much. So you can't, and this is how I understand what a lot of that, for every action there's a reaction, for every action there's a consequence. - Exactly. You did me dirty as a child and you think I'm a respect you as a man. When I grow up, fuck no. You think I'm a respect you when you're a senior. Fuck no. You think I'm a, oh, you know, you're dirty at a heart. I don't give a fuck. Please don't come to me when you get older with no surgeries. No, oh I need $50. Oh, I just can't do what I ain't got no-- - 'Cause the tables do turn. - Yeah, but the tables turn, baby. No, I'm shaking the table like Carly Rae. Ooh, she should, shaking the fucking table. We both having conditions out hard. I'm shaking the fucking table. Try not to jump across the table and shake your fucking leg. Don't play with me. Do not call me for shit. 'Cause all of them times I used to call you for shit. It was, oh, you're gonna do it. So I promises, false promises. Which is why now I don't ask people for shit. - Which is also also, you're probably one of many females who have this thing against where I'll do it myself. Because then you have a father who constantly tells you I don't have it, I don't do it. You're trusting men, literally dwindles to not shit. Because if your own daddy didn't show the fuck up, why would a nigga show up? Which is why we have all these girls nowadays that are just like, I didn't think of who could provide who got X, Y, and Z. And that could do all this other shit because it was never given by a father. - Right, which is why y'all feel like you get these gold digging ass females, which is really not the case. - Cherish them girls. - The same way that a lot of y'all niggas feel like y'all should have this person who's literally a, with this fucking Oedipus complex, like a bitch should be like your mama. Because your mama coddled you and literally daring fun, 'cause you're her baby boy, 'cause your mama's boy. And she's supposed to do everything your mama did. Everybody's at some point is suffering from some trauma from their parents. And if you're not fucking show me, show me. And let me, let's go to a therapist and get this analyzed, because it's fucking impossible. - Like it's just so much shit that is rooted from how you grow up. - And how your parents show up for you. - And what was in your inner circle? - Now I had God dads in my neighbor, and like my mom put an established good male role models and figures in my life. But I feel like in my mind, it did not help how it was supposed to help me. Because those guys that she put as role models for me, except for my God dad who kind of just disappeared for a couple years and came back, but he disappeared. So it was like two niggas abandoned me that I'm supposed to be like dad and God dad. But it's like those uncles that she put into place. I didn't like, I was a very, like, I became jealous 'cause it's like at the end of the day, they're doing for me because they want to, but they have kids of their own. - But it's not the same as if your father took the initiative to do for you. - I didn't see them interact with their kids. Yeah, they'll throw me like, oh, I just want to check in on you if you need to let me know. But it's like they're doing it for their kids. And I get to see them do it for their kids. And then secondhand do it for me. And it's not the fucking thing. - 'Cause I want to be first priority too for the fucking man that's supposed to do that for me. - Right, like I just want the... - Because it's like, no matter how much a parent, a mom puts a father figure in her life, like I have my uncle, maybe rest in peace, who pretty much stepped in as a father figure for me and kind of showed me like, you don't have to settle with no fucking man. I've watched him swoon my aunt for almost 27 years for his passing and show what real love is, what it is to have a marriage, a healthy black marriage, what it is to be a man. And I feel like if I haven't seen that, I wouldn't know what a black man looks like, a genuine black man who loves his woman because I see a womanizer who my mother got pregnant by, who wasn't good for shitting an abuser. And a manipulator and a liar. It's not the same like she said. It's supposed to be supposed to be your father. And then to watch my father show up for his two kids, that dog his fucking name out the most, it just be making me say here, look like nigga, the fuck, the fuck. Like I'm the same daughter who'll go out her way and get you Cojiba fucking cigars because I know you love Cojibas. I'll come see her house and actually to do something for me, but I'm bringing you a pack of beer because I know you don't have to, but it's the purpose that you're doing it 'cause you wanna do it, or because you can do it. I'm the one that's driving an hour and a half out her way and her fucking trip back to North Carolina to spend time with you to sit in your raggedy ass wife's house just to just check on you and put eyes on you and say, hey, when I don't fucking have to, especially when I have no fucking job and the person funding my trip as my mother, you're not giving me no fucking gas money. When we went up there, Chelsea met him, he bought us a cheese thing. Okay, great nigga, a cheesesteak. That $20 you coulda gave me an extra 20 to fucking go back home and gave something in my tank something because there's tolls to come get to you that are unnecessarily having to be paid to visit your raggedy ass, but I'm choosing to do it because I want to make the effort. Now that I've made the fucking effort, suck my dick 'cause I don't care who's wedding. My sister's like, oh well, if someone's so paid for the wedding from having some combinations, who gives a fuck? This nigga's been retired and literally pays no bills in his fucking house, his wife pays all the bills. And you're telling me you don't have $200 to take a fucking flight to visit me? I don't care about my other sister who lived down here. You don't, yeah, that bitch ain't good for nothing. She's been living off you, you don't owe her shit, I understand. But the one daughter who just wants quality time and never ask you for shit, never ask you for shit is like really? Got it, duly noted. So then the fact with my sister was here last week which we can now get into, you're calling me not because you care 'cause you mind you a month ago when I called, you called, I was doing hair and I called you back and you were like, you're on your way to a wedding. When you told my girlfriend, right, my girlfriend is in the phone 'cause I was doing her mom's hair and he's like, yeah, I want my way to a wedding in two weeks to Florida. And you were like, she was like, oh well, you can't stop in North Carolina. He was like, you gotta bring North Carolina closer to Florida. Nigga, that's not funny. - In actuality, North Carolina's about seven hours from Florida. You're flying, so it's like a... - Hour. - It's like 45 minutes, honestly. - Depending 'cause that flight from here to New York ain't no 45 minutes. - He don't live in New York. - He just came from here in New York. You have thought it would have been Vets but it was not, like, hours have changed. - Right, but nonetheless, you haven't made it to our business. - And you're flying and on top of that shit you said, oh yeah, I'll never fly, I'm gonna drive, I'll be the man of the lane. - Right. - Where I'm gonna get her. So we pretty much make it, we make it so fucking, okay, I'm not even saying we. I make it so accommodating for any of Jessica's family. Like, I just give y'all the platform to say y'all wanna show up for my girlfriend and everything else I make it a little too accommodating for y'all to get here. I will do the rest, you just need to get here. So it's like, if y'all can't even take damn near a free fucking trip and make it to where it's worth fucking while for my girlfriend because y'all are her blood, y'all are her relatives, as she would say. - No, they're still blood, they're just-- - I just say y'all are her blood, I just didn't say that for her. - Oh yeah. - You get there your relatives, but you gotta boo. - Girl focus. - The head. (laughing) Like, I make it so accommodating and I'm sure Jessica's gonna eat me up while she describes how the trip where she's going with it. - Eat you all the way up, seven, eight, nine. - 10. (laughing) - Don't fuck you that. 11, 12, ooh, 13. What the fuck are we doing right there? - Just like seven, eight, nine, I'm gonna fucking eat you up. Your little soul, do you get it? Why was six and three to seven? 'Cause seven, eight, nine. (laughing) That's a bad, dad joke, that's a old dad joke. Why was six and three to seven? 'Cause seven, eight, nine. (laughing) - Damn, it took you a minute to catch that. - I'm like, you should have just said eight. - No. - I'm sorry, yeah, it's 10 o'clock in the 11 o'clock or morning. - But I am gonna eat her up 'cause she makes two accommodating. And then for my dad to get that bullshit excuse and then you call me. - To say-- - Not 'cause you wanna check in. - Not to be-- - 'Cause I wanna make her put this whole voicemail clip it in here. - Hey, just calling to check it on your house, yes. - I wonder, can I save it? - You can save it, I'll insert it, I'll insert it in here. And then I'm gonna save, I'm gonna save it, I'm gonna insert it in here. And I'm gonna send it to Chelsea so I can play it right now. I was gonna insert it in the thing and make some more personable if this one can actually hear. No, I'm gonna put it in the actual, I'm gonna put it in as a clip it. I can. Oh, it's not, I'm gonna put it in there. So, I'll still insert it on my own time, but for now I'll let y'all hear it and then I'll insert it later so y'all can hear the confirmation in full clear detail. So y'all, just check them on their house, their situation. - Give me a holla when you get me mad. - Lighter. - The fuck are you calling me for? Because you only call me when you wanna be messy. Now that's some messy ass shit. You ain't calling me in there in three weeks, but that's the first time you call me and that's what you call me for. Mind you, it's not something. You got a nigga that you wanna talk about? You're 95 degrees, you ain't got no nigga that got you. Like, it's not Friday, it's not seven o'clock. Anyway, that's the other topic we gonna talk about later. Anyway, that was the situation in the case and it's just like, why? You're not calling to because you're concerned. Are you drinking? - Lemonade? - Oh. - Okay. - You're calling because you just wanna be messy and getting all your kids down here. So if you really want to know nigga, call her, call your grandson, he was down here too. But you know, Chelsea wanted to be so hot fucking spitable. She shoulda fucking left niggas at the fucking airport to take a fucking Uber after all the fucking gas she wasted and niggas didn't even fucking offer it to replenish it. - Neither did my girlfriend. - Why what? - Is her family feeling like a hot room in here? - Nigga. So tell me what you did, Chelsea. - Excuse me, I didn't do shit but breathe. - No, you didn't just breathe. You got fucking crabs for the raggedy bit. - I got crabs for my girlfriend and my mother. - Let's go pick them up from the airport. You bought her fucking shower gel for a while. Let the bitch get her ocean right before Target closes. - Were you gonna take her? - No. 'Cause she shoulda been fucking responsible. It's not my problem. - How's about you bar so pretty and what did you do with it? - Bar so, you didn't buy me no bar so for now? - I did when I bought you the plates and the cups. - I ain't got no bar so. - I gave you a dial. - No, you didn't. - In the bag. - Yes I did. - And it was in there. And she said, what did she say? I don't wanna use bar so because I don't want pews on my shit 'cause niggas don't use wash coughs. - Okay, so now you have hat and hat and knee. - Whatever nigga. Pointing them out of their hands. I don't have time for mutualness, family members. I don't have time for you considering that as fucking people. I don't have time for niggas who wanna fuck with me when they feel like it's convenient. So when it comes to my fucking sperm donor and his kids fuck off and leave me alone because listen, when I say y'all niggas are reoccurring traumas and triggers, y'all remind me every time why I leave y'all niggas the fuck alone. - And that's good, you're gonna wanna keep it. - There's reasons us into our next topic of reoccurring traumas and triggers and how-- - We're on a podcast. So I keep playing with your phone, knowing it's gonna fucking give a volume 'cause you're seven PM Friday, it's 95 degrees. I ain't got no bitch and no bitch ain't got me. I'm about to show my ass in the good little freak. (laughing) 'Cause he right here with me. Turned on with my-- - Can you fucking focus fuck? - Go over it right now. - Anyways, we went to S.B.V. concert. (clapping) Does she pay for the tickets? - We have burgers and fries at the S.B.V. concert. (clapping) Say it. - I pay back too, for me it's just good 'cause you know. - Did she get your $2 bag? - Nope. - So does he, probably. So when Jessica grows a bag, well it asks her sister for her $20 dollars, then I told her to give her $10 dollars for she fucking left. - But did you tell her since she hasn't given it to you and it's about to have been a week? - Yeah, at this point I'm good over you. - Kissing. - You see how my girl wanted me to have a bag bought? I'd be like, "So you did too much, "you should ask her for gas man, "you should ask her for your think back." But you're just your, saw me put money on a card because-- - Right. - I'm putting in this cashless card only. They sent you with $20 dollars to get her food and you didn't check her right then in there and say, "What the fuck am I gonna do with this?" And now you have an extra for you, I have a money bag. - Do you want to continue on the topic or do you want to go on the tangent? - That was the topic. You grow a bag bought an extra sister for her money bag, then also-- - Don't worry, I'm not asking for my money bag 'cause we went out to lunch the dinner that time when we had our first initial conversation she paid. That's the only reason I'm not asking her. But she paid prior to knowing that she weren't an employee but now that she currently knows you're an employee, it doesn't matter what she paid for three fucking months ago. - You're right, I should ask for my $20 leaves. (laughing) - Not more on the podcast. - 'Cause she know. - Girl, not more on the podcast. We recorded, you know, those did record me. - One minute. - Stop playing shit. - You should have turned my volume down and I was just trying to-- Why would I turn your volume down, the shit was, that's not my job. You news in the podcast, she had the shit off. - So, I turned my podcast volume up on my phone, scratched that, I turned my volume up on my phone. - So that was-- - Stop slapping me. - You know what, fuck it. I'm about to be rude. I'm gonna tell y'all some shit if just a good old girl shit that came out of her house. - I need to mess up a read back from Puerto Rico, she'll be a single witch. ♪ I'm living the single, single, single ♪ ♪ Do little lights ♪ (laughing) It's okay. - Using a wamzoo, I have a stool pictures from Puerto Rico. To post. - Stop pulling my hair. - Anyway, focus on your thing. So while I'm having my dad, I don't have, I mean, I have a dad, but he, I'm not making no efforts. - She got a daddy, and in two to three business months, she'll be a daddy's girl to get it. - No, I won't. - 'Cause they come back to her with the-- - No, I won't. - Just wanna be a good man. - No, sorry, that shit, that, the lies get old quick. I'm good. What about you Chelsea? - Like Robert, I can tell you, the last time I talked to the man, I was in my Facebook Messenger, 'cause that's how he contacted me. - So impersonal. - I deleted it, 'cause I think I need to like, yes, many and I asked him to get into it to be back. So yeah, he has a new girlfriend. I think she has a son, so he gets to be a daddy to a little boy. And I found out he had a new girlfriend, one Instagram. - How you do today? I had to let the child follow each other. - Don't follow him. His name is Robert Nash, he's not creative. - Uh huh, is that still there? - Mm-hmm. - I think if the first was looking for that, I think you could never rob a bank, 'cause I think it would be obvious to know who the fuck you are. - Nash, nine, nine, five, eight, and then, yeah. - Let me see this man now. - You wanna see a better picture about his Facebook? - So that's how, he ain't got no pictures, so how you found out about the kid? - Because he was stabbed in a post, and maybe they broke up, 'cause she was up there. I was like a girl, you didn't see my shit. - That's crazy. My dad don't even have me on Facebook. I blocked the niggies. Now Facebook is a place that's too personal. - Robert Nash, who do you know? - Oh, oh. - Maybe he's just trying to hang out with people pictures. - You gotta click on photos, babe. - Facebook is someone from me. (coughing) - I don't remember you. (coughing) - That's how I want to use pictures in this picture. It's my sister. - That's crazy. How you got five kids, and even that's still like, you don't have no inquiry to know what the fuck going on. And explain to them how you feel in regards to the whole grandparent situation because your dad deprived you. And you look like that, maybe. The only difference is you have Tanisha's nose. Everything else is Robert. - Now what about the daddy issue? - About the whole fact that grandparents, because you're talking about how your grandmother passed on your maternal grandmother passed, and you have paternal grandparents who have no opportunity after, you know, the passing to know what's going on. Those are your sisters. - Where was I, September 6, 2014? 13, about to be 14, so I'm reminding my business. 'Cause I didn't have a daddy. - How you feeling now? - I don't know what you were saying. I'm having a loss. You made me pull this man shit up so now. - Now she's in the rabbit hole. 'Cause we're about to cut this black guy short 'cause she can't focus. So that's what we're about to do. - Okay, something about grandparents. I don't know what the fuck you're talking about. - The fact that you were saying that when your grandmother died, you told him earlier that your grandmother died. - You come, okay. - Right, but you had told me before that you have paternal grandparents that you have no idea 'cause if she's had that. - Yeah, I don't know his grandparents. I said that. I mean, I don't know his parents. I said that. - Isn't it deeper where you feel like you're being deprived to have the opportunity? - Of additional grandparents, okay. So that's nothing to like harp on to make further into conversation. - Maybe this is why you can't do a podcast with a Capricorn. - You can do a lot of shit with a Capricorn, but once you're talking about what I'm gonna do is harp over things that I already said. I don't know his parents. He didn't show up to my grandmother's funeral. So it's like, I don't have two sets of grandparents. I was deprived of the whole side of family if you guys could read in between the lines because I don't know him. I never met my siblings or his parents. So I don't have, I'm a whole side of family. I'm missing, but as my mom has done a great job of creating a village for me, that's what she's done. So although I'm lacking an actual blood line of family, it's been made up in other forms. - And there's that. - All right, this is daddy. - So do you have any further things you wanna share with the people before we sign off? - To all the dumb niggas that wanna be like, wanna have kids, but don't wanna be a daddy. Be well, be blessed, and be a better man than your dad was because we can't keep going down this rabbit hole, but having kids and having kids and having more and more kids and not having stable households to raise the man because the world is getting crazy and I'm crazy about the name. And what we are doing is adding to the population of niggas that either are gonna spazz on stage due to that. - Or become serial killers. - Become serial killers or because they're like, yeah, they need to do for me. They're gonna go hard in a paint and be a better man and do way better things than their father could ever. But it should never have to come down 'cause my dad didn't do for me. I had to grind so hard to where now I'm up 10 mil and now he called me. Because I feel like it happens a lot in the NFL where it's like, y'all didn't want to do... - Y'all seein' fuckin' Bel Air. - Yeah, I don't wanna do shit with me, but now I'm up. But this on my first contract for a team, you sit on your ass and watch it every Sunday. Name it and be like, that's my son, that's my son. - Well, where was he at all of them 18 years before he got the word for he at now? He wasn't your son, he wasn't thinking about him. He wasn't checkin' for him. - And then then y'all be mad about these girls who just don't know how to be. They're always obsessive, possessive, and always in your shit. And they be crazy kid, your cars and shit 'cause they are no daddy's girls and I have no daddy around. - Yeah, because we just drove us some new car who he keyed some of his car deck people. And she put rapist on the car, but she did not do it. - She did not spell 'cause I know rape is well, RAI-P. But the fact is, she couldn't spell it, but yeah. A lot of y'all need to get y'all shit together. I mean, if you're a Marlon Waynes who's out here takin' his big mom in the court and you over here tryin' to have me increase child support by $12,000 a month from $8,000 and you just wanna say, this is a visitor whenever I come to see my child, bitch. Then give me my kid and he's fighting for custody for custody of his daughter, Axel, and I'm not mad because some of them, there are some out there who really do wanna be active fathers, who are active fathers and get grouped in with the rest of y'all, no good ass deadbeat niggas because that was an easier trope that society has pushed on to make it acceptable for y'all to be deadbeats. - And it's not all about the men, it's not. There are some others out there, but since we are-- - That are bitter. - We're not mommy girls, that's some shit you need to get a nigga on the podcast to talk about. Or somebody's oldest child who then got a baby brother. You need to get them on the podcast. But for us, it's really coming from two girls who have fathers who have the opportunity to-- - Spum donuts. - Spum donuts. But in that time, they thought they were gonna be daddy's girls in the night. - And there's that, 'cause ain't nobody got time. So this is for you, I ain't no daddy's girl, I'm good with that one. And the best believe my children probably won't have a girl father. But it's okay, we'll have uncles. But as I say on here, let's keep it real. - And always remember, be real, be true, and always be unapologetically you. 'Cause I ain't gonna stop. Spum donuts. - We're not your child. - I'm not, but we are on this harsh part of Spum. - Spum donuts are over. I had to put that out there on the internet. I know some of the candidates just was six foot tall that could produce innocent babies, what is that? - And I'll catch y'all up in the next one. (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) (upbeat music) ♪ I've heard y'all think cuz these chains fit out ♪ ♪ Give it all, let my truth face fool ♪