Rabbi Joey Soffer Shiurim
Shaare Teshuva-5
(speaking in foreign language) We are on page, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Okay, here we go. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) We said yesterday, right? The main part of making the (speaking in foreign language) is admission and then stopping the sale. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) The foundations of Tishuva, three parts. Regret admission, stopping the sale. (speaking in foreign language) Regret admission is part of the (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Usually when you're going to come and admit that you did something wrong, you're doing that because you felt guilty, right? You're not gonna do it if you don't feel guilty. So, (speaking in foreign language) is to have remorse so that you're going to make admission. (speaking in foreign language) Without these three, there's no such thing as Tishuva. Minimum, minimum Tishuva is these three. (speaking in foreign language) Let's say I had regret and I said I did it. But then I just do it again. I can do it again, right? (speaking in foreign language) Like we said earlier, I was going to the McVear and you're holding the Tumanyan hand. (speaking in foreign language) It doesn't help, it could dip a hundred times all you want, but if you still have the Tumanyan, you're still gonna be, it's still gonna be that way. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) That's why, (speaking in foreign language) admission or leaving it and leaving the sin and then that's when you get the (speaking in foreign language) You can have mercy after that. I'm gonna forgive you. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Even though there are many different levels of Tishuva, like you explained, you're gonna explain again, but there are multiple levels of Tishuva. These are the basic, basic Tishuva, three. You have to have, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Regret admission stops and good. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) It's a person that's constantly fearful. (speaking in foreign language) Someone who makes himself hard in the heart. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Even if you admitted and you stopped, you're not doing this anymore. (speaking in foreign language) Maybe you didn't complete. (speaking in foreign language) He needs higher level Tishuva, maybe. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) To continue to build on Tishuva. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Maybe Tishuva's gonna beat him this time around. (speaking in foreign language) I think we did this yesterday, right? (speaking in foreign language) You need to pray that Tishuva, 'cause Tishuva, you need Tishuva to beat you, Tishuva. So you pray, Tishuva, please, I'm trying to make Tishuva, you need your help, please don't let me fall in this trap. (speaking in foreign language) The end of the pasuc, right, that says it's someone who hardens his heart will fall into evil. (speaking in foreign language) That's the person who thinks, "No, no, I made Tishuva already, I'm good," right? (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) This guy's not gonna try to climb the ladder of Tishuva, he's happy on the level that he's at, right? And he therefore is not trying to add your option. My additional into his repertoire, okay? So he says, (speaking in foreign language) He's not recognizing his obligations over here, he doesn't realize how bad it was when he sinned, when he did to his niche amount. He doesn't realize that he needs extra cleansing, like (speaking in foreign language) Tishuva needs to continue to improve his ways, right? (speaking in foreign language) He's also not gonna be protected from his (speaking in foreign language) That's attacking him all the time. (speaking in foreign language) He's going to fall into the trap of his (speaking in foreign language) When he thinks he's got there, when you think you got there, you're in trouble. That's the life, by the way, sum up of all Judaism is very simple, very simple. Yeah, if you can place it, you're not in the right place. You're not in the right place. It's a constant ladder of climb. If you stop, you're going backwards. And that's the same thing by Tishuva. If you think that you got there, you're not there. You're not there. (speaking in foreign language) Okay, the sixth foundation. (speaking in foreign language) All right, that's what we talked a little bit yesterday when you're saying, "Ana quietly," right? 'Cause it's embarrassing, you know, announce you sin to the world, right? You have to be embarrassed, you sin. You did something wrong, yeah? (speaking in foreign language) Nothing like a little good old fashioned embarrassment. It'd be like a guilt, right? (speaking in foreign language) I was embarrassed, (speaking in foreign language) I was degraded, (speaking in foreign language) would I am carrying the sins of my youth. When you're young, you don't think, you do things, you don't realize? You get a little older, and you start doing that a lot. (speaking in foreign language) It was such a dip, what a dumb thing, you know? That was great. You gotta carry that baggage now, you did it, you did it. It's on your back, and you gotta carry it. That's what it is, so yeah? You need to feel embarrassed about it. (speaking in foreign language) You know, it's sin in public, right? You're sinning, if you do something, you're making sure no one's joking, you're gonna go, right? (speaking in foreign language) You're worried, people are gonna see what you're doing, right? Maybe it's gonna lower your status, then, "Oh, I can't use it, I swear to do this, oh my God." You know, that guy, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) It's like, (speaking in foreign language) You think I'm not watching you dummy? That guy you're worried about, I'm worried about a chef, I mean, what are you talking about, right? (speaking in foreign language) You know why? 'Cause you're not, (speaking in foreign language) and you're kidding, we're talking about four, right? That's where your debate comes from, right? So, you're not thinking about it. Okay, you've watched me in a Nivra'im. (speaking in foreign language) But you're embarrassed to wanna have a chef creations, but you're not embarrassed in front of the creator. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) They said, "Rabbi, you're about to pass, "please give us a break." (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) That was his, his, (speaking in foreign language) to his students was. You should fear, (speaking in foreign language) the way you fear each other, your friends. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) He said, "That's all we need, "that up to only the amount that we fear, my friend. "That's all I need to fear, Ajam." (speaking in foreign language) He says, "If you can get to that level of fear, "of our shame, just the way you fear your friend, "that's enough to you." (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) In private, nobody's in the room with him. And he thinks nobody's watching. (speaking in foreign language) Okay. (speaking in foreign language) Next level of competition, next rung on the ladder. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Not to be embarrassed only in front of people, but to be embarrassed to see when Ajam is watching, which is over, right? (speaking in foreign language) That's the guilt, that feeling that you're embarrassed. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) That my face was covered with embarrassment. (speaking in foreign language) So, let me look at (speaking in foreign language) You'll notice that after the word (speaking in foreign language) many times you'll find the word (speaking in foreign language) What is that? (speaking in foreign language) It's a higher level of embarrassment. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) So, Kim, what you said? So, what's klima? Do shots embarrassment, klima is like, oh my God, your face is like, (speaking in foreign language) You want to hide yourself. You can't even look, you don't look yourself in the mirror anymore, right? That's klima. (speaking in foreign language) All of a sudden, you got this, you couldn't even look at yourself. And then, Ajam, when you make tishu wa'af, it gives you sin (speaking in foreign language) And Ajam is giving you worth. (speaking in foreign language) He's not zapping you, the minute you sin. He's not gonna take a hit you. (speaking in foreign language) You did X, which deserved Y. And Ajam didn't give you that. No, no, you didn't get punished. (speaking in foreign language) If you didn't get the punishment, (speaking in foreign language) You didn't get it. (speaking in foreign language) Should be more embarrassed now. You know, when you did something wrong, and the guy smacks you, okay, I got my punishment. I did my time, right? I did my time. And now, I'm a new person. No, no. Now, Ajam is giving you time, not punishing you. Then, he was so nice that he did something so bad, and he forgave you. How much more embarrassed they have to be. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Right, a person who sins or he rebels against the king. And then, king forgives him. (speaking in foreign language) Even if someone does you a favor, you feel embarrassed sometimes. The guy did you a favor, right? Imagine now, you know that you embarrassed the guy first, you shibbled him, and then he did you a favor. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) I'm going to remember, Vavosh, you're gonna be embarrassed. Why are you gonna be embarrassed? 'Cause I'm gonna forgive you for everything you did. (speaking in foreign language) If someone does a sin and he's embarrassed from the sin, (speaking in foreign language) On the spot, you'll get kapara. 'Cause Ajam realizes right away, if you make it tissue bar right after you did the sin, you feel like, "Oh my God, what can I do?" It's tissue bar, on the spot. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) What happened over here? (speaking in foreign language) Here, this is the story, when he went to Shimuela Meerpest away, and Shimuela went to one of these necromancers, to call Shimuela Meerp up from the dead. Shimuela Meerp from the dead. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Okay. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Now, not only did he have this scenario with Shimuela, Shimuela Meerp also killed the entire city of Nove. The city of Nove was a city of belong to the Kwanim. Kwanim lived there. They assisted David Amelek when he was running away from Sha'ul, and David Sha'ul got angry and killed the whole city, killed them all. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) He himself was embarrassed to say that. (speaking in foreign language) He only said Ashim's not talking to me through the Nove Eam. He's not coming to me through dreams. He didn't also say, 'cause he didn't try to go to the limit to women. They ignored him. That's why he wanted to go to bring Sha'ul Shmo'el back for the death, right? But he didn't say it. Why did he not say that? (speaking in foreign language) He was embarrassed to mention that. Please. (speaking in foreign language) 'Cause he killed the whole town. Don't send him all the Kwanim's. Don't want to say it. (speaking in foreign language) That's only the Kwan. He didn't want to mention it. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Sha'ul Shmo'el told him, when he was raised up, he told Sha'ul, "Tomorrow, you're gonna be with me." That's what he told him. (speaking in foreign language) Tomorrow, you and your sons are gonna be with me. Now, Shmo'el was already dead. So he's telling him you're gonna die tomorrow, basically, right? Now, in me, they'll be with Sha'ul. In me, Sha'ul means you're gonna be with me. Now, Shmo'el, we assume, is in a very hard place to connect. And Sha'ul is being told you're gonna be with me. Sha'ul is gonna be there, too. Which means, he actually made it to Shmo'el. You have to say he made it to Sha'ul. Why is he gonna be there with Shmo'el, otherwise, right? (speaking in foreign language) 'Cause he was embarrassed to mention. He didn't say, he felt bad about what he did. Then he killed the iraqwani. He was embarrassed. And therefore, to Shmo'el, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) How evil is the person, right? Who's twisting his words, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) You need to sit down and remember that God is recording. I'm recording this class. Do you see the words coming out of my mouth? No. Can you listen to this? Whatever you are in the world, in the world, in five minutes? Yes. You don't think God's recording everything, watching everything, seeing everything? What are we talking about? What are we talking about? We can remember that. This camera is everywhere you want. You're walking the building, whatever building you want. Anyone that, anywhere in the world, they can watch you from the satellite. (speaking in foreign language) Anyway, don't worry, there's the camera, wait. (speaking in foreign language) So, I'm just watching. So, you gotta go sing, you think you're in your alone in the room? I love the room, I love the room. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) All right, you need now, if the person is singing, he needs to lower himself down. (speaking in foreign language) So, that's being subservient, right? Internally, (speaking in foreign language) The person who recognizes his creator (speaking in foreign language) The person who transgresses God's words, you don't realize how small you are. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) People that, that (speaking in foreign language) You know, discuss it from, I'm disgusted. I don't wanna be with those guys, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) You should make yourself small, make your thing in your mind. I'm not such a great guy, I'm not just a actual guy, I'm a small guy with David, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) This is (speaking in foreign language) story with Bacheva, when he came to David, and he gives him this (speaking in foreign language) You had one sheep, you had the whole story with the (speaking in foreign language) And so, he's a wealthy guy, he liked that sheep very much, and with the (speaking in foreign language) He only had one, that's all he had, and the other guy had many, many sheep, but he wanted this guy sheep, but he took the sheep, the whole story gives the whole story, and the poor guy, the rich guy took the sheep from the poor guy, and now the poor guy is nothing. What should we do to these guys, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) He's a Bacheva, he belongs to (speaking in foreign language) One wife, the king, you have his money, what are you taking his wife for? So then over there, it says that (speaking in foreign language) It says (speaking in foreign language) It had all, before (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) It says that David says that the (speaking in foreign language) My spirit is broken, live, my heart is (speaking in foreign language) I mean, depression, (speaking in foreign language) God's not going to turn away from such a person. So will I, is that kind of remorse? No problem, God, God, now just because I'm on the recording, of course David, I'm here to not sing, okay? (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) David, she was not, it should each at the time, there was a whole story with him, he was (speaking in foreign language) All story, which we're not going to get into now, okay? That's for all you guys in recording land. (speaking in foreign language) Okay, (speaking in foreign language) My spirit is broken, person who places himself down (speaking in foreign language) Making yourself, subservient is part of (speaking in foreign language) You think you're hoarding and you're great and you're not going to make (speaking in foreign language) You're doing things at the top of the mountain and everyone should be worshiping and it's not making the (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Is the foundation for someone who wants to make tissue (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Person who's subservient, what am I looking for? Hashem says, you know what I'm looking for? I'm looking for the guy who's (speaking in foreign language) who's small, poor, (speaking in foreign language) The guy who's slow, I mean, we know, we know Hashem gives Kavod to the ones (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) He lists them off, the guy who thinks at the top (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Move away, move away, make room for the person to keep (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) God, the one who's up in Shama'im says and follows (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) So he brought this person right, Hashem is, right, the one that's up in Marom is going to raise up those that are Shama'im, the people that are low down, they're brokenhearted, right? And the Ha'yoth Live Knit Ka'im is going to re-invigorate the hearts that have been in depression. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) You wanna shut the jump in there and pull you out of the depth so you had to put yourself down first. (speaking in foreign language) That's this, over there, that's what's in this moor, (speaking in foreign language) Yeah, okay, (speaking in foreign language) All right, I'm not always going to (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) I was angry before with the (speaking in foreign language) and then (speaking in foreign language) I'm gonna give him to Shubah, I'm gonna heal him. (speaking in foreign language) When Hashem saw that you started to make the Shubah while making yourself small, making yourself feel bad, breaking your heart, (speaking in foreign language) That's the person that's broken hearted. (speaking in foreign language) Burn of his bitter, he feels terrible. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Then Hashem will send out his spirit and he's going to heal you. (speaking in foreign language) The healing is spiritual healing. He's gonna forgive you sin. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) So we're not talking about physical health, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) 'Cause you're going to leave the sin. (speaking in foreign language) You know what you're gonna do? Shems gonna give you the power to overcome your (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Not an evil other, we learn to open your own. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Go over to return to Hashem. How you're gonna do that with all your heart, fasting, with crying, with wailing. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Right, tear your heart over your heart, you're closing, right, your heart, being your heart should be over your clothing. I mean, I really have to show it externally that you're feeling this (speaking in foreign language) Come back to me (speaking in foreign language) Then he said, tear your heart. The he, what is that (speaking in foreign language) When you're hurting, when you're hurting, and you're full of yourself in it, that's not the way that (speaking in foreign language) is gonna happen, okay? (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Make the (speaking in foreign language) with regret. (speaking in foreign language) He said, before you stop doing what you did, the (speaking in foreign language) and what you still feel holy, you feel you're great. Even if you stop the sin, and you have regret, but you walk around like you're the king with your nose, stop in the sky, right? (speaking in foreign language) That's not complete (speaking in foreign language) You have to realize that what you did, right, you rebelled against the creator, against your creator, against your master. (speaking in foreign language) So, (speaking in foreign language) that is gonna quote from the Torah that says, there is an idea, this general idea of Tishuvah from the Torah itself. (speaking in foreign language) You will return a couple of weeks ago to Hashem. We will listen to his commandments. (speaking in foreign language) Where does it say that you need to be subservient? (speaking in foreign language) They're going to be (speaking in foreign language) They're gonna right make their hearts subservient, and the (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Forget, forget, forget, forgive me so they say. (speaking in foreign language) Good. (speaking in foreign language) We're talking about being subservient, there's a lot of stages there. (speaking in foreign language) When we get to (speaking in foreign language) had to be humble, he'll explain it to us. (speaking in foreign language) What's the highest of top you could be? (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) It's not to become holy from your actions. It's to be, to make yourself feel small, even though you're doing what God wants, you'll have to do it because it's (speaking in foreign language) not because it makes you greater, it's because you have no choice. (speaking in foreign language) The avoid, you should make your (speaking in foreign language) in private, in private, don't let people see. 'Cause what happens is if you start to become known as (speaking in foreign language) That's not what it look like. (speaking in foreign language) You're doing great things, great. Don't let people know about it. (speaking in foreign language) You shouldn't ask for glory for people for your actions. I'm following, maybe doing wonderful things. (speaking in foreign language) No one needs to know (speaking in foreign language) Now there's a caveat to this one. If you're going to be able to influence others by letting people see what you're doing, then the other way, for sure, no problem. But if it's just about you and you're looking at, no, no, no, no, no, no, do it in private. But if you have the ability to bring people along with you on the journey, then you have an obligation to do it. Fine, (speaking in foreign language) We'll finish with this one. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) What can I come and present myself in front of us here? (speaking in foreign language) How am I going to come before God, meaning (speaking in foreign language) Someone who did, like I said before, did you so many favors, that one? Millions, I've saved you from all kinds of problems. When you come to stay in the front of this guy, what do you feel like? (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) What can I do? I was, and not only that he did for me, I didn't think I'd ever have it. It was all gift. (speaking in foreign language) How subservant you need to feel when you were built against God, and he's still giving you, and he's still blessing you, and you still have more and more and better. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) I think God wants this animals. God wants (speaking in foreign language) I share a (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) For my sins, (speaking in foreign language) Should I give you my (speaking in foreign language) as my sin, because I have so much sins. (speaking in foreign language) I realize how bad it is. I should have even have to give my (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) I have so such a tremendous amount of sins. I can't even stand. I should give (speaking in foreign language) I should give, (speaking in foreign language) Of course, we don't sacrifice people, but as if I feel like I need to give you my first one, because (speaking in foreign language) His (speaking in foreign language) He's talking about when it says the (speaking in foreign language) The sin, (speaking in foreign language) So what's the difference between (speaking in foreign language) We say (speaking in foreign language) The (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Is negligence. And (speaking in foreign language) You do by accident mistake. So I said over here like this. (speaking in foreign language) Right? That's negligence. I wasn't careful. (speaking in foreign language) I give my (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Which is (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Fruits of my (speaking in foreign language) Right? (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Pesha is worse, but they go in descending order. (speaking in foreign language) Pesha negligence. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) So Pesha is worse than (speaking in foreign language) She says like this. (speaking in foreign language) You rebelled, why? 'Cause you weren't careful. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) Right? You're gonna make this (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) So you know what God wants from you? To what's righteous, to what's right? And you should follow, you should follow, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) You want to know what combat to bring me? I don't need your animals, I don't need your soil, and your wine. You know what I want? I want, I have that (speaking in foreign language) That's what I said, that's what I said. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) That's the end of the puzzle. And work with God, (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) That's your job, right? To follow God, quietly, humbly, without sticking out, without making noise, (speaking in foreign language) That will show that you're doing it for the right reasons. (speaking in foreign language) Right? You're not looking for the cover. You don't need to have your name in lights when you do something good. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) You should not try to build up yourself by doing things that people have given you (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) All right, guys, get wealthy, it goes to their head. They get strength, yeah, they become crazy. (speaking in foreign language) You should know, it's God that gave you that. And God doesn't want you to stick it out and shove it in people's faces and force people to do something. No, you do it, you do it quietly, without noise, understanding that you became the messenger, I should have decided you're the messenger. That makes you great, you're a messenger. (speaking in foreign language) Okay, we'll stop you. (speaking in foreign language) My man, my man, have a great day, everyone.