Rabbi Joey Soffer Shiurim
Shaare Teshuva-18
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The one that grows the best, the one that's in, and the one that's in. It grows, you know, not so good. So Ziborit is the field that's the worst one. [speaking in foreign language] You have to work really hard, but if you work hard, you can get it to grow something. You've got to move all the rocks out of the way. You've got to put extra fertilizer. You've got to water it up straight. Everything. And then, if you get a little bit out of it, right? [speaking in foreign language] What if I don't try to do anything? I don't try to move out the rocks. I just plant. I don't put fertilizer. I just plant. [speaking in foreign language] You're getting lucky. Zero. All right? [speaking in foreign language] You know what you do get? [speaking in foreign language] You're always going to get weeds and thorns. [speaking in foreign language] What's going to give the best, the one that you have a field that no, doesn't do anywhere. You just drop the seeds or it's unboom. You know, it's got the right sunlight. It's got the right altitude. It's got the right water source. It's got everything you need, right? [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] What happens if I have that perfect field, but I also don't plant it? What's going to grow? [speaking in foreign language] Also weeds. [speaking in foreign language] So even if you're, even if you have the ability, you don't use the ability. [speaking in foreign language] Nothing. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] What hour yes, that is. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] Example. [speaking in foreign language] He gave his servants a field. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] Take this field. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] I knew what you'd produce for me in this field. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] 30 tons a year. [speaking in foreign language] They did. [speaking in foreign language] They worked hard in the field. [speaking in foreign language] They brought five tons. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] Then I tell you to bring 30, brought me five. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] Mr. King, the field you gave us is not one of these good fields. It's a disaster. We worked as hard as we could. And we got fried ku out of it. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] What he's saying over here is-- [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] It's irrefutable that people in this world are given different abilities. Everybody has a different ability. And everyone's level is different. And when we say, "God knows your yet's in," [beep] So God's not going to give you this field that can't produce 32 and tell you to produce 32. He gave you a yet's in that can produce five. But you got to produce the five. Somebody else may have the yet's in that can do 30. He's got to do the 30. So don't get down on yourself if you can't reach that person's level because you thought the tools God gave you. You got to use the tools He gave you to make the best you. And you can't just say, "Oh, since I can't be that guy, I'm not going to be nothing. I'll let them--" [speaking in foreign language] No, you can't do that. You got to do the best you can. Everyone puts an equal effort. Somebody's going to produce 30. And someone's going to produce five. Well, that's because they were given different levels of abilities. He was getting this. He was giving this. If they both produce what they're supposed to, they get the same rewards. It's very well good. If they both produce only five, the guy with the ability to produce five gets absolute reward. And the guy who had the ability to do 30 but produce five is getting shambled. What are you doing? You were given much more ability than this. You looked at-- oh, but that's what he did. But he maxed out his potential. You didn't. You wasted your time. That's what he said over here. Okay. If not now, then when. [speaking in foreign language] I can't wait a day or two days to start to work on myself or to set aside time for Torah. [speaking in foreign language] Because if I say, you know what, I'll wait till I have some time. [speaking in foreign language] Let me acquire enough reserved cash from the banks. So now I can go sit and learn. [speaking in foreign language] You will never find the time because the pressure of life and the work and things going on in the headaches in life don't stop. It's not like, oh, when you hit to this magic number that you have in your head, all of a sudden, all the products disappear. No, no, no, no, no, I'm good. That's the work that way. Whatever happens, it's going to happen again. And everyone will be happy. There's always going to be something happening. If you don't carve out the time, that time will never come. There's another, I'll do what I have time. You know, when you have time, never. That's when you have time. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] Don't say, no, no, when I get there, I'll change. You know, who said you're getting there? [speaking in foreign language] Okay. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] Yeah, the guy starts gathering things. He's doing well. [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] If you know what happens, you got to that number. And then you say, well, well, I get more. So you want more? That's your nature. You're always going to want more. So even if you got to what you were supposed to, what you thought you needed, and then you got there, you're like, oh, okay, well, why not? We'll go for some more, right? [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] [speaking in foreign language] But I caught a couple of places. Says that a person doesn't leave this world without, with half of the desires that he wants in his pocket. He didn't even get it. Because we have everything. We want everything. I want this. I want this. And even if you got what you wanted, then you want more. So you never got to even half because you always want more. You want to double what you have. [speaking in foreign language] If I have 100, I want 200. If I have 100, I want 200. If I have 200, then I want 400. I have 400. I have 400. I want 800. So it's not a guy. It's exponential growth, right? It never stops. It doesn't stop. The guy that you said before that, he was good, God said that he didn't save it. He has 30, the guy survived. Yeah, yeah. This guy got to his 30. Yes. He wants more. He doesn't know his limits. He doesn't know his limits. He doesn't know his limits. He put that number in his head. You're right. He wants more. But he doesn't know his limits. Okay. Maybe he could get 60. Okay. Good. Exactly what he said. And then he gets to 60. He goes to say 120. But how do you know your limits? Okay. You don't. That's exactly the point. Don't put a number. Find time today to set aside to learn. I didn't say not to learn. I didn't say not to learn. I didn't say not to learn. So what are you saying? I'm saying that you said that. Okay. You said the guy that hit 30, the guy that hit went to five. I'm sorry. The ability. The ability. The ability. The guy that has the ability to 30 stops because the other guys have five. Right. So I don't know. Right. Now you're saying the opposite. Right. The guy's at 30. He wants to go to 60 or 40. He should. Well, I didn't say he shouldn't learn. He can still learn. If he's setting aside time to learn and he's working on himself, keep working. No problem. No problem. Great. No problem. But is he adding on to his time? Is he setting more side? A little extra minutes? A little more time? A little thing? What is he doing? Is he growing? Oh, so? And that? He's only growing one way. He's stuck. He's stationary. I climb the ladder halfway. You know what? I'm a guy. I talk. I go to class every day. For half an hour. And I go to shoot every day. Great. Great. And then the guy starts acuity well. He's going to rush him. Still not half an hour. Why not go up the half hour? Well, go up at the level. Yeah. Raise the level. Raise your level. Don't steal where you are. You're going to end up at the guy that could have got the third year. He's still alive. As you're raising your level. Of course. Of course. Yes. As you are more. Raise him in your trash. Yes. Yes. Good. Good. Okay. Vashli sheet. Third thing he says. Let a cafe. Right? We think about it. We really hear a short time. There's a ton of work to do. I got to work on fixing my character tricks. You know examples of getting close to our shame. Fearing God. You don't know anything. You don't know anything. But again, the idea is, hey, don't go on cruise control. This world that we're in is for working. We've got to work hard. I've got to work in the office. I've got to work in myself. I've got to work in my family. I've got to make sure my kids are going in the right direction. I'm in the right school. And my family is doing the right things together. What's around the table? What are we talking about? What are we doing? It's a lot of work. The more you delay in fixing yourself, so the more chance you have to troll the trap. If you don't know, so you're going to sin. That's the bottom line. Okay. That's the bottom line. Fixing out your niche. If I let my kids get too strong, so he can harden my heart. He's starting to get harder. It's much easier to kill a mosquito than to kill a scorpion. So if you kill your hits out on his mosquito, you just step on him. When he's a scorpion, I had to worry about it. I'm going to kill this thing. It's much easier if you let him get bigger and grow. You get stronger because you keep feeding your hits out. Much harder to fix. That's the thing. Overgrown, please, plots of land that I just left. Even things that will, let's say, unbelievable pictures of a house, let's say, that became abandoned. Fast forward like 20 years. Forest inside the house. Trees just weren't that way. It was a little thing. You went like this, take it out on the ground in one second, it's gone. You want to grow, right? You see the bicycle inside the trees, right? See, right? Okay. If you wait too long, you have a problem. If you wait too long, you have a problem. When you get used to something, you can't let go. You get used to it. You get addicted. You want it. Much harder. If you wait too long, who said you can't even get the chance to finish it off? And therefore, right? He's here so much. I love the whole "ed" you. You want your clothes white all the time. That was the story I told around about the king and the invitation of the party. Okay. When you wait too long, you have a problem. You forget. People forget if you wait too long to make you laugh. You already forgot what you did. You don't remember. How do you remember what I did? I don't know. And we said, we said, we don't remember. She doesn't forget. We forgot. But he knows so far. She made you laugh before you. She did. Okay. She made you laugh before you. She made you laugh. She made you laugh. (speaking in foreign language) Eventually a people age, right? And the yitzah rah gets weak again. 'Cause they're getting old. (speaking in foreign language) The reward to make it to shuvah that late is not as great as it is when you do it when you're strong. When yitzah is strong, you're able to defeat him. Wow, unbelievable. The guys yitzah rah already is half dead. So he stepped on me when he checked. How are you doing? Okay, you get a reward for making the shuvah for sure. Is this the same? (speaking in foreign language) Well, you still have the kohah of an ish and you're fearing God, that's praiseworthy. (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) You have a guy who's master thief. He was the best pickpocket in the world. Walked up and down the street. (speaking in foreign language) Perfect pickpocket. As he gets older, he starts to shake. (speaking in foreign language) And now he tries to pickpocket. The guy feels it now, yeah, yeah, yeah. So he stops. Okay, very nice. He gets to, that's tishuvah, 'cause he got old and he kept pickpocketing and he won't stop doing what he used to do. All right? No other time. He did stop 'cause he knows he did wrong. He stopped 'cause he's always gonna get cold. No, that's not tishuvah, all right? So if you get too old, you get too long, you wait too long, what are you doing? (speaking in foreign language) Good, tishuvah, we're about to stop. (speaking in foreign language) So he says, when you get old and you don't have enough strength anymore, right? You know, you also don't have strength to fight you, it's at all. It goes hand in hand. You get to have toes also getting tired, you know? First it gets old. We all get a little, all those, I have aches and pains, like my arm, my fist, my arm, my arm, I roll complaining, you know? We think we're still 15 years old, but our body knows better than us, right? (speaking in foreign language) (speaking in foreign language) You get to have toes, doesn't have that strength also to fight back the insider. I told you, it's always a balance. Always, you get to have toes, are always a perfect thing. As a person grows on his, you get to have toes, his, you get to have toes the same, because otherwise it doesn't become a test anymore. There's no reward for that. My, you get to have toes here, I might say that's here, I could kill him, it's over. I was like, why should I give you a reward? So they work both ways. As I grow, they grow like this, and as I go down, I'm getting it, they go like this. It's always a 50-50 battle, 'cause that's how I get a reward. Oh, I was able to beat him, you really could've beat me. Oh, reward. Oh, I gave in, even though I could've beat him. Oh, punishment. It's always the same. You think, you'll wait to get a little older, so you'll say, I will get weaker, and you'll be able to beat him. It doesn't work that way, and you'll be able to beat him. You'll be able to beat him, and you'll be able to beat him. You'll be able to beat him, and you'll be able to beat him. I don't know how to fight him anymore. I'm not too tired to think about ways to beat him. I need to fight him, but I need to try to fight my head. I'm not too tired, I can't get up in the morning. I need to sleep. I want my body's tired. I need to sleep in the morning. I need to sleep in the morning. I need to sleep in the morning. I need to sleep in the morning. For the days that come later, the hard ones. (clears throat) (speaks in foreign language) Sometimes, a lot of them are not anybody. It says, I don't know what I'm doing. I don't wanna, it's too hard. Let me go, Ashim, right? (speaks in foreign language) I ran, I didn't delay. I went to Yumitsu World. (speaks in foreign language) We have five minutes. (speaks in foreign language) We have a few minutes. (speaks in foreign language) Okay, this is Shara Shilishi. The importance of Mitzvot, okay? And the warning against punishments. He says, (speaks in foreign language) Of course, there are skills. We don't know the skill to wait. Any Mitzvah or any Avera. We don't know. But they are waiting. They're definitely waiting. (speaks in foreign language) Because a person who wants to make Tushua is obligated to look into his actions. (speaks in foreign language) (speaks in foreign language) After he did his little inspection. (speaks in foreign language) He has to go back and double check. Now, okay, what size is this sin that I have available here? (speaks in foreign language) We'll look into our ways. (speaks in foreign language) (speaks in foreign language) (speaks in foreign language) How bad was this sin? (speaks in foreign language) (speaks in foreign language) This some sins are equal multiple other sins, right? (speaks in foreign language) The Tushua for those type of sins is different than the easy Tushua, easier sins, and more stringent Tushua for some of the other sins. (speaks in foreign language) (speaks in foreign language) 'Cause the greater the sin, obviously, the bigger the punishment's gonna be. (speaks in foreign language) (coughing) We're worried about the sins that are on his list. So what do you gotta do? He says (speaks in foreign language) Why is it gonna, what benefit do I'm gonna have from investigating into my sins? Look I saw (speaks in foreign language) 'Cause you know how embarrassed he needs to be in front of our show when he is for forgiveness. Somebody does something small. Hey, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Okay, so that's something big. I really, really upset you. Did something very, very bad. So I'm sorry it's not enough anymore. Please forgive me. I realized what I did. I can't believe I did that. I don't know how I did that. (speaks in foreign language) Same thing with our show. You did a small sin, small, small, sorry. Big one, okay. (speaks in foreign language) I was so embarrassed. I can't even lift up my face (speaks in foreign language) I can't even pick up my head to look at you. (speaks in foreign language) In what place does this embarrassment on himself, (speaks in foreign language) so that he knows that God will forgive him. (speaks in foreign language) (speaks in foreign language) I'm gonna remember, I'm gonna remember, and I'm gonna be embarrassed. (speaks in foreign language) When therefore you will forgive me. (speaks in foreign language) (speaks in foreign language) (speaks in foreign language) When God forgives you for that big one, 'cause you went and asked properly, you start to realize what kind of level of kindness such a mass towards us. A father will always forgive his son, no matter what he did. He's always gonna forgive his son. And the greater the transgression towards the father, and the father still forgives you, you start to realize, oh my God, I can't believe my father been gave me that. Wow, wow, unbelievable. How much kindness does he have? How much willingness does he have? How much love does he have for me? The more I said, the more the forgiveness of it, the more you start to realize, God loves me. God loves me, I love God. Unbelievable. (speaks in foreign language) Let's say you have a situation where the servant sinned in you, you did something bad to the mest, and in a show, (speaks in foreign language) Right, and then he can't live with himself. He knows how bad he was. (speaks in foreign language) But if he looks at that sin like it wasn't a big deal, (speaks in foreign language) the mest is even, even angrier. He did something bad. He thinks he didn't do anything. Right? And then now, he's not the burn inside. (speaks in foreign language) You need to recognize what you did, so at least you can start to ask me forgiveness, 'cause if you ignore it, so then the anger starts to build inside of it, right? Thank you, I can't believe this guy. You know what he did to me? I look at his back, you like nothing happened. Look at this guy, what are you doing? (speaks in foreign language) (speaks in foreign language) Oh, I saw and I got, (speaks in foreign language) (speaks in foreign language) Right, we have to learn for ourselves that the level of punishments for each sin based on the punishments we can figure out, which ones are a little bit heavier than the other ones, and therefore we can ask for forgiveness more for those types of sins. (speaks in foreign language)