At Sierra, I discover top workout gear at incredible prices, which might lead to another discovery. Your headphones haven't been connected this whole time. Awkward. Discover top brands at unexpectedly low prices. Sierra, let's get moving. Um, contrary to what I said at the end of last episode, I look like shit right now. I have started my journey on trying to put more effort in my appearance, but it doesn't start today. Ladies and gentlemen, Spotify listeners, you, you're saved. Um, I really, I don't care. I don't care. You know, it's so shocking to me that like, I was somebody that like didn't leave the house without makeup for years. Like, I would like have a freak out. Like, I just didn't want anybody to see me in my natural existence. And now I will go online to tens of thousands of people. And I wait, sweet Lord, give me a beauty filter, but I hope it's already there. But, uh, yeah, I, that's still cheating. Whatever. I don't care. Nothing's real. Who gives a shit? Okay. We're all going to die. That's the reality of it. Okay. That's, that's the shit I'm on right now. I'm actually in a period of my life where like, I control nothing and I don't fucking care. Part of that though, there is like a happy part of it where like I have this confidence of like, okay, come with me. We'll figure it out. And yeah, I also, did anyone have, did anyone else? Okay. Hold on. I'm, I'm not getting all spiritual on you, bitch. But energetically, did anybody else have like, a weird week? Because I felt like I had a weird week. Everyone else had like a very, a couple of my friends had a very heavy week through the week. I was like, what is going on? But I don't know nothing about stars, astrology. Yeah, I don't, I don't know anything. So, um, if any of you guys know anything about that, don't tell me. I don't know. The week's already over. Y'all ever have a moment where you realize that your friend and you are two completely different people? Like they, I mean, like, let's say you've known them for quite a while, but at some point, they exhibit some kind of trait that you're like, what was that? Like, like, not necessarily like, like a, like a horrible thing, but like just a, whoa, I don't have that. What was that? Explain that. So a couple of years ago, and I'm not judging, I'm not judging this one. I'm just explaining my shock. Okay. Remember last time I was kink shocked? I'm like, trait shocked again. Okay. So I go, bro, this shit is mad funny. Do I say her name? I'm gonna say Katie. So me and this shit, Katie, we used to work together at Hooters way back in the day. So me and Katie go way back, like 12 years, right? Also, wait a minute. Hold on. Okay. I forget that some people like follow me on shit and don't know the deep lore. Also for ADHD people pausing on the first story, I'm going on a tangent and I'll bring us back in a moment. Okay. I realize that some people don't know the deep lore and they just follow me on stuff. So I sometimes will post stuff about being at Hooters because I think it's funny because I used to work there. You know how when you work at a restaurant for a long time, you like always go back to eat the food if it's decent. So when I go to Hooters, I will like almost always do an Instagram story. And I'll write something like the eagle has landed or back to the mothership like Hooters is my home or I'll never stop. I didn't realize that there are some people that don't know that I ever worked at Hooters. So they think that I'm just at Hooters drinking beer and staring at titties. So I would like to clarify. The reason why I make all these Hooters jokes is because I used to work there. It was like my first job that I really enjoyed. And so I have like a personal tie to it and I worked there for years. Okay, I'm not broke. Okay, so back to the first story with Katie, my co-worker from Hooters. Okay, so she and I worked together when I was like 18 to like in my early 20s or so. And we weren't super close then. We kind of like followed each other on Instagram, kept up with each other. Always had like a general like like admiration for each other. And you know, one day a few years later, she hits me up and she's like, "Hey, I'm gonna be in LA." And I'm like, "Oh my god, this is exciting." Like a hometown friend, like me and Katie were not super close, but she's somebody I feel connected to because she was around for a major part of my life. My hair has never looked better when I sleep on my Blissey pillowcase. Because look, guys, honestly, I don't have to straighten anything. Like, I literally can just roll out of bed. But you can tell, girl, you could tell I just rolled out of bed. And look, Blissey makes it easy. The other thing is the pillowcases are so silky. Like I've gotten silk products before from like a hair shop or something, but it's just not as good of quality as these are. And my favorite thing about it is they're soft. Like when I think about it, I want you to think about a silk pillowcase, just kind of like brushing on the side of your jaw. Like it is soft, it's silky, it feels luxurious. And I didn't realize until I got my Blissey pillowcase that sleeping and feeling luxurious is something that I was missing in my life. They're washable, hypoallergenic, and they have a little hidden zipper. So, you know, you girlies that really like your like bed setup and want everything to look cohesive and nice, this one's for you. But also I am using my, so I have four Blissey pillowcases that I'm washing weekly, getting them nice and clean, because this stuff also can help your skin get a little bit better. And my god, I need it, okay? I'm on my Blissey journey of waking up with better skin and waking up with silky hair and also sleeping soundly on a luxurious pillowcase. And you could be too. So go to blissey.com/ignpod and you can get 30% off. And guys, seriously, like these are actually good products. And then we get to give you discounts on a podcast. I'm so lucky that I get to try some of these premium things and also tell you guys about them and give you a discount code. I mean that so genuinely we've bet so many of our sponsors and I love these. So if you want to try Blissey and get your 30% off with 60 days risk-free, go to blissey.com/ignpod. And so I'm really excited to see Katie. I go to Santa Monica. We're hanging out on the beach, like our friends there. We're having a really good time. There's like this connectedness. And also I want to mention that this is such a pointless story. No, it's not. This is important. It's not. I also want to mention that I had been in LA now for a year and some change by myself. So I moved to this brand new city completely alone, like in my mid-20s or so. And it had been a while since I had seen a hometown friend. So even though she and I weren't like super, super tight. Oh, it was so good to see her. It was like the feeling of home right on the beach in Santa Monica. There was something really beautiful about it. So I'm just in this state of comfort after moving out to LA for so long. And I'm like, wow, this is a friend of mine. I haven't seen it forever. This feels so great. We hang out of the beach. I think I crashed at their Airbnb. We went out the next day. We went to go see a matinee movie. How cute is that? And it's just all happy vibes. And then we're like, oh, let's go to this restaurant and get some day drinks on the beach. And I'm like, bitch, a patio hates to see me coming on a Saturday, okay? So yes, we, I remember it was like a 330, like patio drink on the beach. And I'm like, oh, this is amazing. We're drinking our margaritas. And we get the check. I think I've paid the check. And then as we're about to leave, just like grabs two of the shot glasses. And then like this tiny plate off the table and she puts it in her bag. And I was like, why did you just do that? And she said, oh, I wanted to, I wanted to keep the memory. And I was like, that's not yours. Now, listen, my little klepto girlies, okay? I don't know if I've told this story before. I had a brief phase for like a month where I stole stuff and I got caught and it was very embarrassing and I never stole anything ever again. I hear you guys and I know you're like, fuck the man. You're still, it's like a business. Honestly, sure. Who cares about the fucking restaurant, right? But for me, I'm in this state of innocence. I am with my hometown friend and we just saw a matinee movie. And now you are stealing it. Judas, Judas Iscariot. So I, guys, and here's a funny thing. I stole stuff and I was like 12 years old, but I don't know why. In this moment, my brain just broke. I was like, Katie, you can't do that. What if they catch us? And like, this is like, so my childhood fucking brain, because what are they, what are they going to do? Like, stop us at the door. Like, excuse me, ma'am, we need to check her back. I don't know what I thought that they were going to do. I do have these times where like, I revert to some like little kid version of myself where I'm like, we cannot do this. Like, she's back in church, guys, okay? So part of me gets it, but part of me was like, Katie, how could you do this? And so she took, she took the shot glass. She fucking took it and some other stuff. And I was like, and I remember we were leaving and we're walking down the boardwalk. And I was like, Katie, how much stuff have you stolen since we've been together? And she said, it doesn't really matter. It's not like they're going to miss it. I was like, oh my god. So this was just a moment that I had. So this is what I mean by have you ever had a moment where you realize that you and your friends just have like a completely unshared trait. Like generally you and your friends have a lot of crossover and then like a little bit of fringe and maybe some outside ones, but I, yeah, I don't know. I was like, no, so that ties in to a more recent story, okay? So, okay, after my experience with Katie, I have learned to accept my friends that are little kleptos or they'll take a free meal or two. I accept you guys. Okay. I do, but I have my eye on you. So this past week, I go to a restaurant. I sit down. It's happy hour. I'm at the bar. I think I got, I went to this place because they have really good chili lime wings, okay? I get the chili lime wings. I get like a margarita or something and this older couple comes down and they sit next to me. They're like regulars. And then this other guy comes and sits down like two or three seats, like away. And he orders a shot and then he orders another drink and asks for the check. And they bring him the check and he goes, um, do you guys take apple pay? And the guy is like, no, man, we don't take apple pay. And he's like, oh, no, like, I, like, oh, you don't take apple pay. Like, and the guy is like, yeah, we don't. But can you, if you have your phone, can you send it to me? Can you Venmo it to me? And then I'll pay your tab. And the guy is like, okay, okay. Oh my God. Yeah, for sure. And like, I was listening because like he just got like a shot and a drink. I was going to pay his tab, you know, like if he was like caught in a bind, I'd be like, yeah, just throwing on my shit, you know? So I'm paying attention. I'm like, oh, okay. He's going to Venmo the bartender. And then like, I can't remember exactly what he said. But he started making excuses for why he couldn't Venmo him. And he was like, oh my God, my app is frozen or, oh, and I'm logged out of cash app. And when he got to the second excuse, I was like, this guy's a fucking liar. Like, he's just hoping because he got two well drinks on happy hour. And they're like $3 each. They're just going to say, forget it on the $8 tab and he gets two free drinks. I'm like, he's a scammer, okay? So of course, I'm bored on a Friday by myself and I'm going to engage fully. So I start listening. And the guy is like, well, I'm sorry, you need to pay your tab. And so the guy's like, okay, okay, okay, I'm going to call my brother. At this point, like I'm not paying his tab because I know this is like a scam. But like I said, I'm going to fully engage. So he gets on the phone and he puts it on speakerphone at max volume. And he goes like, hey, Jay. And like just by his demeanor, he really wanted the bartender to hear it. And I could tell and the bartender could tell. So the guy starts talking and he's like, hey, you got my wallet or something or you have my something or you owe me, he was saying something like that. And I need $20 to pay this tab and they won't let me leave. Like they won't let me leave. And like he was not that dramatic, but he was getting real dramatic. And so the bartender knowing that the guy wants him to like hear this and like, you know, it's like somebody's making it over dramatic. So the bartender's like, hey, it's cool. You know, the bartender walks away. I continue to fully engage. And so now that the bartender's gone away, bro, bitch, his voice gets lower. Like now there's no point in like having a little freak out on the phone. But he's talking to this person. I don't think this is a family member. I think this is a friend, but he keeps calling the friend brother. He like the way he's saying it is like, hey, we're close. Help me out. Like brother, brother. Come on, brother. Like it doesn't sound like it's his actual brother, you know. And he's asking this guy to come up to the restaurant and give him $20. And he starts saying stuff like, I'm not going to jail over this. I am not going to jail over no tab. I am not. Then why did you order the drink? You knew you didn't have any money. Why did you order the drink? Like he's he's trying to make a big deal of it. And so the friend agrees to come up and bring him the $20. And in me and remember I said the bartender had walked away. I'm listening. Nobody else is around. He gets off the phone and he immediately orders another drink. He goes, bartender, bartender, I'll have one more. I'll have one more. My friend's coming up here. My friend's coming up here. And the bartender, the bartender goes, well, I need you to pay this first. Because like he can smell it in the water. He's like, I'm not going to give you this other drink until you can pay this tab. And the tab is like $9.33 or something. It's like literally two happy hour drinks. A couple years ago, I went on a date with this guy and he was attractive. You know, he was nice. But you know what? The minute that he started speaking Spanish, I thought it was so hot. Okay. Well, one, I personally love learning languages. I wanted to be a polyglot when I was a little kid. That's all I wanted was to know multiple languages. But also, who doesn't think that somebody knowing multiple languages isn't hot? Are you kidding me? So you know what? Get hotter and get smarter with Babel. I can think of a thousand different reasons to learn a second language. One, a stimulating hobby. Two, for travel. Three, impress your friends. Four, be able to speak with like a family, like your spouse's family or something. Like there's so many different reasons to want to learn a new language. And the fact that we have tools that make it possible now and easy and accessible is really just such a blessing. I mean, back in the day, we had to go to, you know, some bookstore and buy these expensive textbooks and learn all this out in the third. Like, no, we have interactive software that can really get you started and hitting the ground running with any language you want to learn today. And also, look, I'm gonna tell you right now, y'all are bored sometimes. Yeah, y'all really, y'all really just be sitting around, learn a language. Learn a language, do it. You've been looking for a new hobby, learn a language. Sit down and do it. I implore you. And listen, give Babel a shock. Are you ready for the discount? You're not gonna believe it. You're not gonna believe it. Up to 60% off, up to 60% off. Oh my God, I love a good deal. Well, how do you get it? Go to Babel.com/igotnothing, that's Babel.com/igotnothing. That's B-A-B-B-E-L.com/igotnothing. Ends with an N, not a G. All right, use our code, help us out, help yourself out and learn a new language today with Babel. And the guy is like, ugh, ugh, ugh, oh my God. And then another man walks in and immediately the scammer guy starts huffing and puffing and then he starts trying, oh my God, I forgot this part. The scammer guy tried to start talking to me. Like he tried to start being friendly with me. And I knew that he was just trying to schmooze with me. So I was just like, no, no, no. Like, you know, I just kind of was like, you know, it's standoffish. When the other guy comes into the bar, the scammer guy immediately starts talking to him and he's like, oh my gosh. So where are you from? Like that overly friendly, overly nice, blah, blah, blah, blah, guess fucking what? He starts telling him that he can't get a drink because the bartender wants him to pay his first tab. And the guy says, oh, don't worry, throw it on mine. And I'm like, no. So this new guy comes in and he starts, is this interesting to anybody? Because this was like my whole Friday night. Okay. So, so then the new guy comes in and he starts, and he pays for the other guy's tab. And now they're sitting together and having drinks together. I'm like, oh, he getting his whole tab paid. Okay. And so, okay. So I start thinking of like, I'm two margaritas in now. And I'm like, it's time for me to fuck around. It's time. And so I tell, I tell, I talk to the bartender and I was like, do you think this guy is, I was like, does this guy come in here a lot? And he's like, no. And I said, is he like scamming you guys? And he was like, yeah, something's weird. I'm not giving him another drink. And I was like, well, that guy's about to like, pay his tab. So now me, the old couple next to me, and both of the bartenders are like, fully engaged. Okay. But we're just like, watching quietly because it's a $9 tab. But like, we're all bored at four o'clock on a fucking Friday. And we have this on camera stage actor that's just ready to entertain us. The onlookers are on looking and the two got the scammer guy and the new guy. They're sitting outside on the patio, smoking a cigarette. And so I come up with a silly little idea. I told the bartender, I was like, dude, I just want to see if this guy is a piece of shit. Because I like, it's 100% giving scammer, but I just needed to prove it. Okay. So I look at my wallet and unfortunately, the smallest bill I got, it's a 20. And so I come up with this plan and I tell the bartender, I was like, dude, I'm going to go out there and ask that guy if I can bum two cigarettes off of him for $20 and see if he pays his tab. Now, reminder, don't smoke. I don't smoke. We are not no smoking. Don't do it. But I need they were smoking a cigarette and I needed to make like an exchange, you know. Guys, I'm such a fucking troll. And like also, I told you guys, I am a court jester. Okay. I'm a court jester. I love chaos, but like, I like good, clean chaos. Like if you, if you literally look at my life, like, I feel like I'm always in some type of chaos, but it's this fucking silliest, stupidest shit ever. Okay. So this is me with my plan. Okay. So I tell the bartender and the old couple and we're off to the races. I go outside and wait, let me, I actually made notes about this entire situation because I knew I was going to tell you guys about it. Let me just make sure I'm not missing anything because we're getting to the bottom of it. Okay. So I go outside and they're smoking and I say to this camera guy, hey, I'm so sorry. Can I bum two cigarettes off of you for $20? Don't smoke. Or I said, no, no, no, hold on. This is how it happened. I'm so sorry. I went out there and I said, hey, I'm so sorry. Do you guys have a cigarette and the guy in the scammer guy is like, Oh, yeah, honey. Cause remember he wants me to buy him a drink. Yeah, I've got a vape and if you want, I got something, you can hit my vape. And I said, no, I thought I saw you guys smoking out here. I was like, I'll give you $20 for two cigarettes. I'm not even kidding. His bottom lip dropped a little bit. Like it's like, imagine the face a scammer makes when somebody hands them the money for free and they don't even have to work for it. You know, like this is like a scammer's fantasy. He like picked up. I wish you guys could see it. He picked up his book bag and was unzipping it while making eye contact with me with his lit drop down. And he said, yes, baby. I got two for you right here. And he, and I, and I, I, I barely even got the money in front of him. And he said, Oh, thank you. And then he said, Oh, this will be perfect for my next drink. My whole test was to see if he was going to go pay his $9 tab with the money that I just gave him. And that's how I found out what the price was. Cause I asked the bartender how much it was. And he immediately says, Oh, this will get me my next drink. And I was like, Oh my God. So I get the parcel. Don't smoke. And then I take it back inside. And bro, it was so fucking funny. The two bartenders and the, and the old couple, they were staring at me like, what's the news? What's the, we're all bored on a Friday. Okay. At four o'clock, but. So I come back in and I said, he took the money. And then he immediately said, this is going to buy me another drink. And then the two bartenders just looked at each other. And they just kind of, you know, they just kind of laughed. Cause this isn't a huge deal, but it's just like, come on. Like, and the funny thing is the scammer guy thinks that he's so slick. Like he thinks he's charming everybody. He's manipulating everybody around him. But we're just like watching him embarrass himself with his $10 tab. Girl, get, get a dollar. Get a, get 10 of them and come back later. So, so I give them the update and we're just, you know, that's it. That's our fun. And then I remember I was talking like, to like the older couple about their work and whatnot. And then brother comes in, the guy that was supposed to give him the money. So at this point, scammer guy has ordered another round of drinks. New guy has paid the previous drinks and the old tab. And they're ordering more drinks and now brother is here. I, they're still sitting out on the patio. I watched this interaction so closely because I'm the closest one to the door. And brother comes up, I, this was a friend. I don't think it was his relative. And then he was like, you gonna pay me back? He was pulling out his wallet ready to get the money to his scammer. And he said something like, you know, I got you, you know me or something like that. And the dude gave him the $20 and he was like, I'll, I'll be right back. And then he went to the bathroom and brother went and sat on the patio, scammer guy went to the bathroom and then didn't talk to the bartender, didn't pay any tab, didn't do anything. And then he went back out on the patio. So he got new guy, he got, and you know what? I'm sitting here saying that he's kind of dumb, but I mean, he got what he wanted. Homeboy was about four or five drinks deep by the time I left. So he got new guy, he got money from brother, he got money from me. I mean, like the man was putting on a show. I had to tip. Okay. So that was my Friday night fun. And I, I, dude, I'm at it. I'm not that I'm, that that's my story for the podcast. But like, bro, that's, that's what's going on. That's what's, that's what's going down in life right now. I just, um, I, yeah, I don't, I don't have that trait. And so it was, it was fun. It was interesting to watch. I, I don't, I'm still shocked by it. I'm not bothered. I'm, I'm judging a little bit, but I'm not bothered. So who fucking cares, you know? And also, honestly, what a great scammer and what a great entertainer. He just gave us a whole story and he got everything he wanted to the store. I don't know. You know what? I would really like to know if you're in the comments. Oh, I think you can leave comments on Spotify too, which is crazy. I would love to know what are your thoughts on scammer man. Is he brilliant? Is he evil? Is he, is he just like you? Is he just like a friend? I don't know. I want your thoughts. I finally figured it out. If you've been here for a while, for I got nothing, which I think we're actually coming up on a year now, which is insane. I think come like December, maybe. If you've been here for a while, you know that I have this weird doomsday proper thing that I don't know why I have it. And I, I had an inkling. Oh my god. I cannot, okay. I cannot believe, I'm about to tell you guys this. I'm about to tell you guys about my privileged life, which is really fucked up. I'm, you know what? I'm going to do it. I'm going to test this. I'm going to tell you what it is and see if you hate me afterwards because I low-key think this is kind of funny, but it's crazy. Okay. So I think part of the reason why I may be a doomsday prepper is I was thinking about this with a hurricane that's, that just passed through in Florida. Is that I grew up in, in a hurricane county with 20 years of hurricanes. And I grew up with a hoarder who was always ready. [laughter] Dude, grandpa was always ready. Okay. I was actually talking to my mother about this and she was telling me that like, there was some hurricane we went through when I was like 13 or 14. And um, I stay, like I, I was, it was just me and my mom and the power went out. And I was miserable because like I was a kid that always wanted to be on my computer. And I really wanted to go back to grandpa's house and I started thinking about it. Okay. Let me just tell you guys something about my grandpa. My grandpa is, he was like a vet that was like discharged and you know, he got like, you know, social security, something from the state and also he couldn't work. He was disabled. So he would just be at home just like building shit. Like when he could, you know, like when the back wasn't messed up. He'd just be at home building stuff. And he also was a treasure hunter. My grandpa every single day, Monday through Friday, like clockwork in the morning, he would go to the thrift store and I never understood why. And he would always come back with stuff. He would, this dude would bring me back these ugly ass shoes, like some ugly leather shoes. And he'd be like, these are real good quality. And I'd be like, I don't want to wear those. Those aren't cool. But I, and he would do this every single morning. I realized in retrospect, he was like a treasure hunter. And to me, I don't think my grandpa has any like OCD traits. But this one's kind of an OCD track because he would wake up in the morning. He would have to have his routine, which was getting to the thrift store at 9 a.m. Because he was afraid if he didn't go see what new items were out, he was going to miss something really good. So he starts collecting all of this stuff. Now, I've told this story before and like, you know what, I, what's so weird about this is I feel like some people are like, what is that true? I'm like, yes, this was true. The way that I grew up and I got into playing video games was because my grandpa would go to the thrift store every day. And he knew that I liked video games and gaming consoles and he didn't know anything about it. Didn't know anything about the games, didn't know anything about the consoles. But when he saw a piece of machinery that we did not own or that I didn't have, he would pick it up. So I had and then he would also buy a bunch of these like old monitors. I am not fucking kidding. The way I grew up was in our bedroom. I had three old school computer monitors and a big cabinet underneath it. And I had multiple consoles. I had a Sega Saturn. I had an old school Nintendo. I had a Super Nintendo. I had, I had everything. I had a fucking Atari. And they were all in this lower cabinet. And then in the lower part of the cabinet were all of my games. My grandpa would just constantly pick up games. They were like $2 at the thrift store. We had everything. And so I was kind of tech savvy as a kid. So I would take the AC plugs. You know how they had the yellow and white for video and audio back in the day? And I would alternate the console that I wanted to play into the correct monitor that could like use it. And so I just had this mega fucking gaming station that was completely thrifted ever since I was a kid. Okay. So that's what type of person my grandpa was. Okay. And we were like poor. We did not have a lot of money. We had six people living in a, is it a two bedroom? No, three bedroom. We had six people living in a three bedroom house. We did not have no fucking money. And I think it was like 700 square feet. Something like that. So dude, okay. So have I painted a picture? All right. Now picture this. A fucking hurricane is coming. I don't know what a hurricane is about. Something we back in the early 2000s. And so me and my mom, we go to my grandpa's house because, you know, we're going to be with family for the hurricane. And if you've never lived through an area that gets a lot of natural disasters, I didn't realize this until later, but it's um, it is very stressful. It is extremely stressful. And I also think that like areas that are constantly affected by natural disasters, there's a lot more like poverty and trauma because people lose their entire livelihood, don't have any insurance, don't get any help. And then they have to go on and then they have kids. And then those kids have kids. And then they have, you know, and it gets passed down. Like areas that are prone to natural disasters and they're, it's fucked. And then also they're told, well, that's just how the weather is. And it's crazy to me because I think about how often we were prepping for hurricanes when I lived in Virginia and how serious it was and how I haven't had to deal with that fear in 10 years since I've been in California. Now, will I fall into a crack in the earth? Maybe, but you know, the news isn't talking about it because that's random. That's like a little bit more exciting, right? Hurricane season, not that fun. Okay. So we decided to go to my grandpa's house and the hurricane hits. Let me tell you, there is nothing better than being at a hoarder's house during a natural disaster. Because let me tell y'all, we had the generator on. We had the generator on. We had the fish fry going and we had the kerosene lamp in the kitchen. Don't knock it over. I remember going through the hurricane with a piece of shrimp in my mouth, walking back over to my computer, moving my mouse at 10 years old. And I said, what power outage? We were so prepared. And then years later, when I started going through the hurricanes with my mom, who was completely underprepared, I was like, bitch. So I, I think that might be where it comes from. I don't know, like, you know, holy fuck. This podcast is just me like throwing out my mental issues and being like, does anyone understand? And can you explain it to me more? I don't, I'm so sorry. I'm so well, actually, no, because sometimes I talk about like music and shit. I hope you're happy here. I've been saying that for so long. Like every episode, I'm like, why do you keep coming back? But I keep doing the show. I'm so insecure. Help me. I alternate between crippling insecurity and soul crushing confidence, truly. But I never get to feel the confidence. It's just somewhere in my decisions. And I never feel it in my body. God help me. Joker two is out. I might get crucified for this. I always say that listen, this episode is my testing ground. Okay, it's just my testing ground. Um, I, I don't know if I'm going to see it. First of all, have you guys heard of the substance or seen the substance? I'm going to get to the Joker in a second because I have a very controversial opinion about it. And when I, like I genuinely do have a controversial opinion about it. But can I touch you guys first about the substance that just came out? It's that new, dimmy, more horror movie. And oh my God, I loved it. Body horror doesn't bother me at all. So if like, if extreme gore, I would say it's the goryest movie I've ever seen. Um, bothers you or anything. It's probably not for you. But I mean, the concept is generally about aging in Hollywood. And bro, they had, they had dimmy, more as old as rolling around naked on the floor for, for hours, hours to shoot this movie. But you know what? Dude, dimmy looks so fucking good for her age. It's insane. It's insane. Like I, I swear, I said I was going to do this last episode. I am going to go on a journey of trying to care more about my appearance. Just you guys wait. I might be smoking fucking hot in a year. Okay. I might be. But dude, dimmy looks so good. It's crazy. But yeah, the movie was dim, like an older version of herself, dimmy Moore, with a younger version of herself played by Margaret Qualley or whatever. And um, I have to say something. The first hour of the movie is so good. I mean, it's interesting, but it's not too much. And then in the second after the first hour passes, another thing too. Let me say this. I was not impressed by Margaret throughout the first hour. I was like, why was she really the right actress for this? Like she wasn't putting it on. And then in the last hour of the movie, it hit me. Margaret is a horror girl. She is a scary bitch. Okay. She really is the scary bitch. And that scary bitch light came through in the end and I was like, oh my god. This is why they picked her. And also, dimmy is losing her mind in the movie after, so after the first hour, the acting for both of the leads just goes off the fucking wire and it's so good. Honestly, I'm like getting chills talking about it. That I want to like go see that movie again right now. It was very good. So if you're a horror fan or if you're just interested in how they portrayed like the psychological concept of aging and Hollywood through kind of this horror lens. Oh my god. What a great fun. I have really been enjoying sitting down and watching movies lately. As you guys can tell, I talk way too much. I can't sit down and watch a show. I can't watch a movie. Lately, I've been shutting the fuck up. I've been shutting the fuck up and watching. Love is blind. I took myself to the movie theater. I went, I went, I went by myself. I do a lot of stuff by myself. And I like it. I'll give back to that. Let me talk about the Joker for a minute. I'm going to give you my controversial opinion. Maybe if this cuts to just the next topic, that means that my post-production team told me do not leave that in too controversial. I was really disappointed in the casting for the Joker and I too. And I did not want to see it because I was really excited about House of Gucci starring Lady Gaga. I thought that she did a pretty good job and a star is born. I thought Lady Gaga is a true artist. She is a true, true artist. And I really, I love Lady Gaga like I do. And that's actually part of the reason I was bummed. I personally hated her in House of Gucci. Like does anyone ever talk about that movie? That was a biopic and it should have been huge and nobody really talks about it. And so I watched it one day on a plane and I thought that Lady Gaga couldn't act in it at all. When she did a star is born, she was a musician. Her character was like an aspiring musician. There was a genuine connection between her and that character. And so it was easier for her to slip into. For House of Gucci, she had to become a completely different person. That was a real person, which takes a really, really, really strong actor to do. And I think in theory, Lady Gaga does sound perfect. She's a big name. It adds a lot to the movie. And also just aesthetic-wise. Oh my god, she's perfect for that. And I thought that she brought the whole movie down. And you know what, you can love an artist and you can love all of their work and have that one thing that you're like, dude, that fucking sucked. And that's personally how I feel about that. But that was a couple of years ago I saw that. I still really like Gaga. And then so for the Joker, this character that she's playing, I'm like, is there a thread in the real Lady Gaga that connects to that character? Because if there is, then maybe she will blow the rollout. Or maybe it's been a couple of years since House of Gucci. Like maybe she's, you can be an artist all day, but acting is a real, real, real skill. You really have to drop into those characters. And just because you're an artist does not mean that the acting comes automatically. But it's been a couple of years she's done other work too. So maybe it'll be different. But I personally just thought it was so weak in House of Gucci. And I think that maybe I felt like there might have been a better casting for Joker too. But those are just my thoughts. Also curious what you guys think on Joker too. And hey, listen, let me tell you something right now, bitch. I'm not asking you that to like drum up interaction in the comments. When the fuck do you ever see me do a call to action? It's so hard for me to even tell you guys to subscribe to the channel. And podcast five stars, please, please do it. But I'm not asking you this stuff to like get comments interaction or anything. This is for now, this might change. Right now, this is the only channel that I really read the comments on pretty comfortably. You guys are very nice to me. And I like you on the main channel. I'll read comments for like the first hour to mostly just to get like a temperature check on how people are feeling about the videos and whatnot. And then after that, you know, I have a million subscribers on my main channel. And so, you know, not everybody is my core audience, right? But you guys on the pod are so fucking nice to me. So like, when I ask you this stuff, I mean it and I really am reading it. And I mean, shit, sometimes I reply to people on the account. But I read almost all of the comments that are actually on this pod. So if I ever ask one of these and you have a genuine opinion about it, please leave it because even though I may not necessarily like respond or hit the like thing or whatever, most likely I've read it. And I love hearing, I love hearing you guys' feedback. I like hearing your pushback. I love hearing your opinions. I like hearing what you've been through. Like, yeah, like I really like it. Because that's why I started doing all this shit in the first place. You know, online stuff, when you're a smaller creator, you get to really be personal and intimate with your audience. And sometimes you lose that after a while. And so I still have that here. I still have it. I still get to read your beautiful words. And I do. I'm not just saying that to suck up to you. And I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. Why do I talk to myself like this? Why do I talk to the pod? Like this, I have no idea, but yeah. Oh, and then also, here's another thing. I was going to mention this too. Like, what have I been doing lately? What, bro, I have been doing so much stuff by myself. And I realized this before I got into my long-term relationship. I always did stuff by myself. And even while he and I were dating, I still was always doing stuff by myself. Because like, okay, bro, for some people, if your partner goes off on a trip for three days, by themselves or randomly takes themselves out to dinner, it can be like sketchy, right? Like, if you guys are like always together. No, since the beginning, I've always been a fucking loner. So even through the relationship, I would go off and do shit by myself all the time. And he didn't bat an eye because he knows I'm not doing shit, you know? But so I was just, I basically, I'm getting back to myself now. Why do you like, dude, I do like everything alone. And I, it's interesting because I am, um, I, a lot of times if I tell people what I'm doing, like, like, dude, my friends will text me and be like, oh, what are you doing right now? And I'll tell them. And, and they'll be like, oh, who are you with? And I'm like, all about myself. And they're like, oh, I'm so sorry. And I'm like, what do you mean? I'm so sorry. Um, it's shocking to me. The, um, ping ponginess I have with myself. Because like, you hear how insecure I am on the podcast. Sometimes like, do you guys like me? Why are you here? But I'm secure enough to be by myself and go do things by myself and really genuinely enjoy my own company. I feel like I'm a burden to other people, but I really like myself. And you know what? I'm actually not mad at that combination because it makes me check in with people. It makes me temperature check. And then it lets me just enjoy my own company, I guess. But yeah, like, this past week, I, oh my God, I had this awesome day where I literally worked all day, like, you know, eight or nine to five or something like that. And then, uh, I kind of had a couple hours off between like five and nine. So I took myself out to the movies to go see the substance. And it was so fun. And I came back and like studied. And I was like, oh my God, what a productive day. And then I think like after that, I went to the corn concert by myself like over the weekend. I took myself out to like restaurants over the weekend, which I always do, you know, a couple of weeks ago, I went to Vegas by myself and had a fucking blast. Bro, I was a bit the pool and the Fontaine Blue on a day bed, just sitting there sipping an aperol, spritz looking at the water. And dude, I just be there for hours and it doesn't phase me. So I don't know. I don't know if anyone else is comfortable being alone and doing stuff by themselves all the time, but more power to us because I'm having a great fucking time. However, however, I will say, I am being healthy, expanding my friend group. I've been hanging out with lots of like my girlfriends doing stuff. I've been, you know, talking to people doing my thing. I'm still being social, but I'm still like enjoying my life, you know. So anyways, that's my update. Things are pretty good right now. I did have a weird week. I think I'm processing a lot of stuff, integrating a lot of stuff, but like overall, I can't complain, bitch. Okay, that's the episode. Also, one last little tiny update of one of my more dramatic episodes. Well, not dramatic. Not dramatic. I had cancer. Went to the dermatologist today. I got another dude. We got another little spicy one gone. Get off my arm. This one was super close to the side of the melanoma before. So we were like, nope, let's get rid of it, biopsy it. I got that one, got another one on my chest. Just did my skin check for six months. I have to go every six months to get it checked, which sucks. But reminder, go to the doctor. Get your checkups. Do yourself. I'm so serious about this stuff right now. And I just like to give you guys little reminders. If you see any weird moles and they get weirder, ask a doctor because that stuff happens very fast, but very safe, very healthy, very happy right now. And I have a new Durham. That's fantastic. Okay, anyways, that's it, bitch. Bye.
